narrow stress

today chruch sermon was reali great...the sermon reali impacted my life and thought...i felt i being naif in everything i do...i being stupid for wat i am now...i felt tuff everytime i reflect bck..

i knw it over and is past...i could not go bck whr i came from....i nid to move on but how can i strive it thru..i nid alot of STRENGHT and POWER to work tis out...i am reali frustrated of myself for being so so attitude and for being so rely on frenz....i am so stupid and naif....huh....

i am upset,frustrated and fed up with myself...i being so so immature in my past..i cry and cry whn i reflect it..i felt a heavy rock just pressure me and i try to remove but i just could not.....i dunno why and i dunno how to do it so....i ask for help but thr is no one...i am alone and i lost sense of security and sense of direction...

i am totally lost....i try to wake up but i just could not i felt of fallin off the step stone....i am scare to love, to care, to concern, and etc..i just dun wan to do thing and make thing rite...i seem to run away from everything if i reali can....i starting to hate myself again and i knw it not rite....but i dunno....i am totally being process but evil sprit...i try to fight for it....i pray tat God will with me....and i knw HE is thr but i just nid to work thing out....

WHAT CAN I REALI DO???

I AM REFLECTING MYSELF.....

CHEE CHEONG.....

PAUL....

ROBIN.....

STUDIES...

FAMILY AND LIFE.....

I AM LOST NOW....

I DUNNO WHICH DIRECTION.....