time goes off and on..so do mood..

Hi everyone..it is late i knw i am still awake to finish my audit...haiz...anyway just wanted to blog a while...hehe...just update wat had happen recently...it seem thr is alot thing goin worng...i do not want to say in detail but it seem to tuff for everyone aorund tat i saw...well...one more prob is exam which is around the corner..i am so scared and worry abt so do ppl around me...exam seem to a fear to us as student but some does not fear it at all due to they are very well prepared...:)

Tell the truth i am enjoyin study audit now i found alot of joy and fun with it...well econs to me seem to...b...bored...hehe...well will try to make it fun...well i kind of worry abt MA,FM,and also FAP....but guess wat i realize tat today i study FAP in detail actually i could understand and i can do past year..i was so hapi..thks God for the wonderful knowledge He had gave me...:)thks Daddy...love u...XOXO...:)

I still one more day to exam..i kind of worry the coming paper...reali...so hope ppl around could pray for me tot...:)....those who pray,wish and etc....>>>>i will want to wish u thks....:)

I shud off to concentrate bck my audit...^^nite...GBU!!XOXO

Love,
eve_gal

mood swing..

today i had a mood day..i dunno..i miss sum dearly without the person knwing...is sound stupid rite..i had not reali tot to him seen after the day itself..and the person seem to treat in away whr indirectly is hurtin me..i dun wanted to sound cos i does appreciate how the person treat me...

well,i just felt the feelin is reali weird and it seem to b hurt and unhappy oni...plus i hear a sound sang by raymond lam..the title is love without regrets..is a reali nice sound and it reali make me wanted to let go on miss tat person..i reali felt difficulty want those thing in this way..i hate it i dislike tis type of feelin is just make me not me...i will just take a few time to blog abt the song...here we go>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

愛不疚
ngoy but gau

收藏在眼眸
sau chong joy ngan mau
常徘徊左右
seurn pui wui zholl yau
愛猜到沒有
ngoy chai doh moot yau

愉快玩笑後
yu fai woon siu hau
能全然退後
nung choon yeen touy hau
你開心就夠
nay hoy sum jau gau

這種感覺太親厚
ze zhong gum gok tai tzun hau
講一千句也不夠
gong yut qeen gouy ya but gau
假使講了你聽到後
ga see gong liu nay ting doh hau
或會走
wat wui zau
這種戀愛太罕有
ze zhong loon ngoy tai hon yau
不須真正擁有
but souy zhen zing yong yau
成全
sing choon
衷心祝福然後
chuong sum zhok fok yeen hau
就放手
jau fong sau

放手
fong sau
放開所有
fong hoy soll yau
彼此更自由
bay tzee geng zi yau
放手
fong sau
其實我絕非愛得不夠
kay sut ngoll joot fay ngoy dut but gau
放手
fong sau
豁出所有
kwoot chuot soll yau
還有這個好友
wan yau je goll hoh yau
已經
yi ging
已經足夠
yi ging jok gau

遙遠是宇宙
yiu yoon see yu zow
靜靜在背後
jing jing joy biu hau
去看守就夠
houy han sau jau gau

這種感覺太親厚
ze zhong gam gok tai tzun hau
講一千句也不夠
gong yut qeen gouy ya but gau
即使一剎有過衝動
jik see yut saat yau guo chun dong
挽你手
wan nay sau
這種戀愛太罕有
ze zhong loon ngoy tai hon yau
不須真正擁有
but suoy zhen zing yong yau
成全
sing choon
多捨不得仍然
duo xie but dut ying yeen
是放手
see fong sau

放手
fong sau
放開所有
fong hoy soll yau
彼此更自由
bay tzee geng zee yau
放手
fong sau
其實我絕非愛得不夠
kay sut ngoll joot fay ngoy dut but gau
放手
fong sau
豁出所有
kwoot chuot soll yau
還有這個好友
wan yau ze goll hoh yau
已經
yi ging
已經足夠
yi ging jok gau

放手
fong sau
我的牽掛
ngoll dik heen gwa
找不到盡頭
zao but doh jun tau
放手
fong sau
期望你幸福甚麼都有
kay mong nay hun fok sum moll doh yau
也許
ya huoy
愛很深厚
ngoy hun sum hau
然而我早看得透
yeen yi ngoll zoh kan dut tau
放手
fong sau
至可擁有
zi holl yong yau

Hiding within my vision, always lingering beside, can guess love is not present
After happily playing & laughing, and be able to totally retreat; as long as you are happy it’s enough.

This kind of feeling is too loving & warm; to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient.
What if you were to hear it and afterwards leave
This kind of love is too rare, doesn’t need to completely possess
Giving approval, give (my) blessing wholeheartedly, then let go.

Let go, let go of everything, both will have greater freedom
Let go; in fact it’s not because I do not love enough
Let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend
It’s already, already enough.

From a distance, in the background of “universal silence”, just observing is enough.

This kind of feeling is too loving & warm; to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient.
Even though there was an instant, on impulse where I wanted to hold your hand
This kind of love is too rare, doesn’t need to completely possess
Even with heaviness of heart, (it’s best) to let go.

Let go, let go of everything, both will have greater freedom
Let go; in fact it’s not because I do not love enough
Let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend
It’s already, already enough.

Let go, my memories (of you) cannot find an ending
Let go ! Wish you will have happiness & everything.
Maybe, love is very deep, but I have already seen it through
Can only possess when (you) let go.

i had enuff of everything..this song teach me how to let go those thing had plan ahead.i dis;ike feelt of lostnesss..well, i hope i could like those ppl around but whn i knw i dun have the capability and power to say or ask...well...i will stop here la..tired d...sleep...:P


LOVE:

eve_gal

random...

studying but seem the mood gettin bit by bit...huh...i dunno why...i miss the day i had....i pray over it and will see wat will happen...i now i shoud wait and i nid to have alot faith with it..gah!!bck to study...mood swingin!!haiz...miss the person...

God reveal me answer??

Hi guys and gal...i congrats those who had finish their exam while i wish all the best to those who still preparing exam...well..today is a tires day for me...study was productive...loves audit...hehe..

Nothing much to blog but just do a quick share wat thing happenin around la...

As i had blog my abt thing had happen on past 3 days...and past 2 days my feeling was just okies...nothing much till night i just felt the hurt whn the gal say something...i do care for her feeling tat why i kind of sensitive..i reali do not wan thing happen and leave bad image in her and back as a memories...well..tat night itself i reali cant control my feeling but just burse out lidat...i did not hope abt it but it still happen...and thks God and thks kel and lice for being with and let me share it out...at that moment i knw i could only turn to God and i reali wan to find someone to say to but i just could not..and the person i can find and tok to is on finalz...so i do not want to call up and disturb...huh...but anyhow it had done on tat night itself by some1 praying for me and i just felt better after tat...

While yesterday was a tired day cos i slept at 7 something in the morning....study till very late....and i went to cls in the afternoon...till i tok to kumz(dear) and she told me abt a verse which is matthew 7:7-8...and guess wat in my personal time with God and the verse seem to appear again..is God revealing me something or God is tell an answer for those question tat i had doubt with it...what is all abt???only thing tat i reali can do is kip praying and wait see wat Daddy gonna do with it...

Tellin the truth i missin something and i knw i shud not miss it so much...bcos it will make me lost my concentration on study...i try to minimise it....i nid alot prayer to cover me and i reali hope tat those who read this can pray for me(everything>>studies,relationship,time management,health and etc), my mum,family and frenz...nothing much to blog sum more so i will stop here la....XD

~~good night everyone!!~~

Love;
eve_gal

my eye tear had drop...

Gei Wo Yi Shou Ge De Shi Jian 给我一首歌的时间

雨淋湿了天空　毁的很讲究
yu lin shi le tian kong hui de hen jiang jiu
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
ni shuo ni bu dong wei he zai zhe shi qian shou
我晒干了沉默　悔的很冲动
wo sai gan le cen mo hui de hen cong dong
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
jiu suan zhe ci zuo cuo ye zhi shi pa cuo guo

在一起叫梦　分开了叫痛
zai yi qi jiao meng fen kai le jiao tong
是不是说　没有做完的梦最痛
shi bu shi shuo mei you zuo wan de meng zui tong
迷路的后果　我能承受
mi lu de hou guo wo neng cheng shou
这最后的出口在爱过了才有
zhe zui hou de chu kou zao ai guo le cai you

能不能给我一首歌的时间
neng bu neng gei wo yi shou ge de shi jian
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
jin jin de ba na yong bao bian cheng yong yuan
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
zai wo de huai li ni bu yong hai pa shi mian
哦　如果你想忘记我也能失忆
O ru guo ni xiang wang ji wo ye neng shi yi

能不能给我一首歌的时间
neng bu neng gei wo yi shou ge de shi jian
把故事听到最后才说再见
ba gu shi ting dao zui hou cai shuo zai jian
你送我的眼泪　让它留在雨天
ni song wo de yan lei rang ta liu zai yu tian
哦　越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点
O yue guo ni hua de xian wo ding le yong qi de zhong dian

哦　你说我不该不该　不该在这时候说了我爱你
O ni shuo wo bu gai bu gai bu gai zai zhe shi hou shuo le wo ai ni
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
yao zen me zheng ming wo mei you shuo huang de li qi

哦　请告诉我　暂时算不算放弃　我只有一天的回忆
O qing gao su wo zhan shi suan bu suan fang qi wo zhi you yi tian de hui yi

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>translate to english...>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
(Give me a song's time)
The sky with rain
It becomes more gray
You say you don't know why at this time you're in one's hand
I am committed to the sun
Gray's more silly
Even if only afraid of doing wrong thing is a miss

Walk together
A separate walk
Is not to say that the dream hasn't done the most pain
If you step back
I can bear
In the final speak
Where is the love ?

Can give me a song's time ?
Hold closely then the embrace becomes forever
In my mind
No need too many insomnia
If you want to forget, then I can adapt

Can give me a song's time ?
To hear the story until the last to say good-bye
You take my tears
Let it stay in the rain
If you still doubt about my courage, it was a despicable

The sky was wet
It becomes more gray
You say you don't know why at this time you're in one's hand
I am committed to the sun
Gray's more silly
Even if only afraid of doing wrong thing is a miss

Walk together
A separate walk
Is not to say that the dream hasn't done the most pain
If you step back
I can bear
In the final speak
Where is the love ?

Can give me a song's time ?
Hold closely then the embrace becomes forever
In my mind
No need too many insomnia
If you want to forget, then I can adapt

Can give me a song's time ?
To hear the story until the last to say good-bye
You take my tears
Let it stay in the rain
If you still doubt about my courage, it was a despicable

You said that at this time I shouldn't say that I Love You
How to prove that I didn't lie
Please tell me
Time out doesn't mean that I give up
I only have memories of that day

Can give me a song's time ?
Hold closely then the embrace becomes forever
In my mind
No need too many insomnia
If you want to forget, then I can adapt

Can give me a song's time ?
Oh..To hear the story until the last to say good-bye
You take my tears
Let it stay in the rain
Oh..If you still doubt about my courage, it was a despicable

Rap:
You said I shouldn't
At this time say that I Love You
How to prove that I didn't lie
Time out doesn't mean that I give up

I said that I shouldn't
At this time say that I Love You
How to prove that I didn't lie
I only have memories of that day

hi..whn i hear this song reali gave me a strange feelin which do not express..i reali unsure tat feelin is wat...just knw it felt sour and pain..well,anyhow it is just a song..

I started to miss the special day tat i had...the short moment i had...i reali do miss but only it will b God's will and God's allow..yesterday i do had a reali bad day...everything seem to b last minutes...being a song leader as last minutes,help at last minutes,choose song at last minutes,learn song at last minutes and etc...i had this type of preparation...sorry to say tat but reali...hmm..a joyful tat had yesterday end up with a raining day with my tears roll down at the meantime of Alpha;s meeting..things happen which i dont wish but it still happen...i will not go deatil with problem tat occur but i will just blog some of it..

here we goes....(pray whn i blog it i will not cry)i reminded my housemate to do house duty but i reali did not knw tat one of my housemate told them not nid to do..so my response get from my housemate seem to so anti of everything..i just give a short remind did not mean anything but she response it a way tat reali hurt..she had get me wrong...i dun have the mind of concept tat she is lazy but she seem to be thinkin i am...she send the message tat reali do not bother the read...i am so hurtful by all word tat she say cos i reali do not mean it...anyhow,i could able to do is just end up with sayin sorry even how much she wanted to say...i felt reali disappointed and sad...i did not expect tat come from her but it did...well i reali speechless but my heart seem to felt the torn tat hurtin me...ok is reali embarass tat i had cry...thks to someone tat reali concern and care for me so much..truely say thks alot....^^

at the moment i actually think to call up someone but i knw i cant...so just let it be...*___________*i will end here..bye.... :'((

Love,
eve_gal

sleepless night!!

Sleepless Night

The light goes out and silence comes in
Everything is quiet.... but that's just appearance.
I lay there and close my eyes..and felt the night will not be good..
I try to sleep and nothing else
I'm just confused and sad.... turning to and fro
My eyelids are heavy, my head needs to calm down
....only my heart seems to fight against my sleep

Weird thoughts kip coming in and destroyed feelings fly around
Why is sleeping at the moment so difficult?
Trying not to think about.... but it seem i couldn't control..
What shall i do at this moment itself???

The raindrops become sad...
And my feelings are so hopeless...
nothing i can do just to find back my peaceful sleep..
Only way to deal with my sleepless night is to clear up my situation..
That discomfort me so much..

hey guys and gal...how you all have been doin nowadays??exam is around the corner...so how preparation coming up??good??well...my preparation was ok..i will not say it is good bcos i kind of worry for it but i knw i just need to surrender to God..

Past few days i have been buzz on my exam preparation and yesterday i went to timesquare to meet up sum1...the meeting up was great and had alot of fun and joyment on meeting up,listenin and chattin...eventhou is short but was still great...but i felt sorry tat i had wasted thier time on temaning me...Sorry!!

Yesterday i had study till 5am and i nvr get to sleep tight at all..i dunno why but.....hmm...tis morning i wake up and i went to class but i just felt so tired and weak ..i try to sleep but i could not...haiz...

I worry abt my mom's medical result...well..i could not do much to recover her but i can only trust in Him and kip prayin..i knw that miracles will have so continue trust in Him and have faith la den..{mummy i will kip prayin for u and God love u...i knw He will heal u...^^i love u mummy!!muakss n hugss!!}

I think i will stop here for now cos i seem had no mood to write on i also did not knw wat i witting too..i bet i shud get some rest....take care everyone...love u all...XOXO...all the best!!


LOve,
eve_gal

New year; new beginning..

Hey everyone...how u all have been done??time is just like the sea wave where it swap away 2008 and bring 2009 to this moment...so welcome lovely 2009...well,how was everyone celebration of new year???had alot of fun?enjoyment?happy?lonely?sad?lovely?or???

i tot my celebration will be bored and lonely..at tat time itself i had decided just go to church only but i did not expected everything seem like had planned by God and i just felt like its like His way....^^..at tat early morning and tat day itself i actually undecided to go because i actually had to place to go...at tat nite itself actually had decided with my answer but it still is a shaky answer to provide bcos i still dunno how to tell the gal i will b away...but i was so surprise tat she SMS me say tat she is not going and more prefer just celebrate with her family and frenz around...at tat moment i knew my ans can b provided to my housemate...so new year actually i celebrate with my housemate and some christian houses mate at klang....

tok abt klang...well,i will say it is a factory area and the road sometimes is reali bz..it is also a plc tat famous with 'bah kut teh'...haha..klang is not the 1st time i visit which tis will b my second time....tat day itself we went to church and attended the activity tat had provided...tat nite itself we actually wanted to celebrate at cafer but unlucky all cafe are fully book and its full with ppl...so we decided just celebrate at my housemate plc but spontaneously we had celebrate at mamak stall...haha...intersting yeah!!well..eventhou is mamak but it is blessed tat we actually can celebrate thr...^^tat time are reali near to 12 d and few minutes later we countdown together...haha...(around ppl was lookin at us)

tat nite everyone slept very late and everyone is havin its own fun...sum are chattin and sum are plying card,sum is plying with sequence, and sum oredi slept..haha....well..admit it i slept very late which i slept at 5...and the next day nid to wake up at 9 to go to church...but thks God i am noot sleepy at service....hehe...after tat we went to 'bah kut teh'.....i still felt malacca nicer haha....(sori klang ppl)^^..and we head for little shoppin at JJ thr...after tat we heading bck to TBR...at tat time is oredi dinner time d...everyone are so tired...well,i tot come bck home i will sleep but i did not...huh..and tat time i was preparing my dinner and after everything i start my study till 2 something and slept...well is seem the day is so short and pack with activity...haha...well, to those who celebrate alone is ok...anyhow, u are not alone alwiz cause thr is sumone much more special with u alwiz and had celebrated with u alwiz....try to guess who la!!XD...

it is late now...i guess i better get some rest...u all too yeah!!have a great day ahead on 2009!!have fun!!GBU all!!~xoxo~

LOve,
eve_gal