the most miserable day~~

Today i hav run out of mood and sad....til i hav run out of mind and done sumthing freaking stupid....

Dues to this i hav cause my suffer in an trauma~~~now my hand had alot of scar and alot of blue black.....

i dunno i am insane or i had been a worst situation....i dun wan u to leave me..pls dun leave me...i nid u..u tell me u are not my everything..

let me tell u....u are my everything...i am not lack of love but i just wan to love sum1 and i wan the most...i tell myself not to fall in deeply but i had love u deeply...and i hav into u..

u had slowly gain my trust with u...but now why do u wanna to broke it???why u wanna me to lost the trust on u and lost the love on u??

u started everything and make me clam and comfortable...but why now make me miserable and hurt???

i dun wan tis to happen again...pls.....do not cause tis sitaution to happen again.....

thank you~~

I dreamed I went to heaven And you were there with me; We walked upon the streets of gold Beside the crystal sea. We heard the angels singing Then someone called your name. We turned and saw a young man running And he was smiling as he came. And he said, "Friend you may not know me now." And then he said, "But wait, You used to teach my Sunday School When I was only eight. And every week you would say a prayer Before the class would start. And one day when you said that prayer, I asked Jesus in my heart." Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. Then another man stood before you And said, "Remember the time A missionary came to your church And his pictures made you cry. You didn't have much money, But you gave it anyway. Jesus took the gift you gave And that's why I'm here today." Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. One by one they came Far as the eye could see. Each life somehow touched By your generosity. Little things that you had done, Sacrifices made, Unnoticed on the earth In heaven, now proclaimed. And I know up in heaven You're not supposed to cry But I am almost sure There were tears in your eyes. As Jesus took your hand And you stood before the Lord. He said, "My child, look around you. Great is your reward." Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. This its a great song that i shud share to everyone here....Bcos of the great Him we had changed....we shud appreciated every single in life that He had gave us...and He had been alwiz be my awesome God....thank you for everything and thank you for changing my life....

A surprise relationship...

Through out my days in colleges....life had been good...everything seem to be bless by God alot and He had truly awesome for blessing me a bunch of great frenz and supportive frenz....

A semester just passes and now i am in the second semester....tis semester itself its a tuff semester...i hope thing will goes out right and everything can be overcome...i have also started a relationship with my classmate in the month of september..

i was superb surprise with his confession toward me...all this while rumors and gossip been spreading ard btw us and i did not expect tat thing occurs so suddenly...and most surprising it tat he no in love with me due to tat reason but he is in love with for who am i....i truly thank God for him.....

i had been kip praying tat he will get to knw Him....i will cont pray over it as i had share chris to him and i will nvr give up bcos i believe that miracles will happen in the same time i knw God will do sumthing on it.....i pray tat God cont give me strength,power,courage and word of wisdom tat i can cont share the Good News of God to him...i will nvr give up on him and i will share the love of God as i love him now.....

i will kip prayin for tis relationship too.....

i hope greater tis will occur in my life and relationship...and hoping more soul will b safe~~

Prayer~~
Father,i pray for confession of my sin and over thing i have done through out my life....i have not been an obedient child of God...i confess all sin and action i have done into ur mighty hand as ur blood of christ have covered over me.....Thank for dying on the cross for me and everyone and thank you for blessing me so much as well as being with me no matter in wat situation i am in...i pray tat God will continue overseeing me and bless me in my life...i also pray for my bf tat tis soul will be safe and holy spirit will come and anointed him...i also pray for this relationship to b a firm and strong relationship...i pray and uphold every single thing in to ur mighty hand....In Jesus Most precious Name i pray...Amen..

new beginning of everything in life~~

It had been a long long time i did not updates tis blog itself due to the buzz-ness im facing.... Anyway,its great to b bck here writing all my thought,feeling,gratitude,emotionalism,fact and so on....

Through the tuff one year...i hav learn to be even more independent by myself...After the last semester of diploma, i am being alone on doing my thing but i truly thankful cos i have God and Chen Lee(my close frenz) to be with me when i am down,be my guide when i am lost in certain situation and encourage me in everything... *thank you Chen Lee*

After Diploma, i have to learn to be stronger in everything that i do cos i am no longer have frenz like Chen Lee to be with....i have to learn to face and stand strong in thing that happen.....Thank God that i have been and truly know how to stand strong....

In Adv Dip 1 semester..It had been a tuff situation that i am going through and i personally devote myself on concentrating in study...i have forgive and forget my past....Remember 1st day of class i learn to be extra hardworking then before...Think even more....I thought i will be lonely and sad cos i have no more frenz with me that its close....but i truly thank God for a bunch of frenz that had been so supportive to me...Yong Jie Ming had been my nice frenz that i have mix with, secondly will be wei xiang.... after those day...my frenz circulation had increase even more like mey see,phei yee,mun chun and so on.....it had been great....being a student in adv dip its not a joke on playing ard like plyground....

After the 1st semester i have learn alot and i truly thank God for my great result....even its not the perfect 10 and awesome result but its still a great result i nvr get....and i also wanna thanks Yong Jie Ming for being a great supportive,great frenz,great partner,great study member and thks for the love and extra care to me....

Now i am in the 2nd semester..i hope thing will goes in its way and i hope thing will goes their way...i pray and hope that i will able to cope my this semester subject which is AAP,PM,Taxation,and also CF...^^