wat can i do much to make thin change...

hey everyone...
Time passing fast and now i am in a new sem again which this is th sem i will fight for it again...it is not easy but i will do it still cos i had faith...

well,thing around me getting every dull and it seem thr is more black and white...i am disappointed in alot of thing and i am sad with thing tat had happen thru out...i try to love a person who main for me but now...i just how to express and dunno how to love the person..all sudden i felt the pain and tired to do thing..i had no motivation in everything in life..i felt fo giving up everything in life...

I knw i shud not like tat but i just colud not find comfort and peace and love tat i nid..i am lost and i am blind..i am breathless too..i felt my life is gone all sudden i lost th power to life on..i felt so difficult to stand and move on and breath...wat shud i reali do...

i kip cryin out to You and i kip sayin cryin to myself i does love him much...my mind is stuck..thing around could not settle i felt reali tuff i reali dunno wat can i do much to work thing out..i felt like cryin but i just could not.i kip in all into myself..i am showin tat i am reali strong which i am not...:(

love,
eve_gal

The mix and match of pice and puzzle of life..

Hi readers....
It had been another long time on not blogging again...so so sorry...i had been bz with preparation of exam with kinda stress up...but still strive thru alot...

I had been promise post up but i did not fullfill it...so so sorry..i promise i will do so for the up coming post...

Just live update a little and part of puzzle of my life these few days....
There is alot thing happening thru out with my expectation and it seem to a tuff week...but still thks God for everything cos with HIM i reali do not knw whr to draw strength from....

Well,i admit i am in a relationship...i will tel u tat this relationship is not easy...At the 1st moment i am in i felt tat he is just treat me like a part time gf whr whn he nid me he sms me but whn not he will just leave me alone...tell i felt it thou i kip tellin myself he is buzz with stuff and so on...but than i still cant take the fact...i was reali upset whn found out he drinks and i disappoint on not bothering me...i was reali angry yet upset at the same time..At the moment i reali dunno wat to do i just felt the broke dwn and i felt a moment on rushin on this realtionship and i had done wrong decision..

I had been kip prayin for this relationship...even thou he is not a christian but stil he is God creation...whr God love everyone of us in this world no matter wat u are or wat color u are...without failing i kip paryin i knw thr will b a change in everything we done...tat nite itself i tok to him and i felt ok but thing seem to not tat well after tat...well..i start to think alot again...haiz...but thks God he actually prepared a way out for me...whrone of the nite we spend the whole nite on rising issues which happening thru out and we gettin to knw each other even more then b4...well all glory still goes to HIM...without HIM this thing would not happen....

my relationship with him now are more stable than b4...but then i still nid alot of prayer to cover it...cos prayer make different in our life...^^

well,upcomin thr still 3 more paper on hand which i nid to sit comin sat,mon and tues...i reali pray tat God do give me strenght and knowledge on doin well...i reali nid to study cos at the same time my bf coming dwn to kl..so i bet i had not much time on this and tat..so i nid a good time management....i pray hard for it...Lord pls help me yeah!!!

I guess i will stop here for not and get bck to my study now...thks GOd for everything....
PS:kip prayin for me yeah!!thks...

LOve,
eve_gal

THe motivational camp!

Hi guys and gal...
I will wan to apologize to u all for not bloging past few week for i am bz with my project and study around... Beside i am bz with some work too..:D

Anyway, i had great day through out even thou i am tired thru out the week but still i am satisfied with wat it is...

1Stly, i am wan to congratz to all YA(DIGI) who had graduated from the marketing event...we had alot of fun on it...even thou it is the last to work together..:D after the whole event i am bck home to studty my tamadun which had test the next day...after the test i went to my lab cls and i receive a call which informin i am the next coming advicer for DIGI in my campus..i was stunt at tat moment and reali speechless..i dunno how to express myself and felt a reali big pressure after all...cos i reali no confidence i can do it and why me???hahaha...after tat all of thing happen which no one knw except God...He knw every single thing tat happen thru out...i wanted to share but i cant *privacy*..

Den thru out the week i kip try to work out my job and decide fairly to choose commander for the new coming year...i hope wat i had decide will not b wrong choice..i trust them and i believe i able to wrk with so i reali hope they will cooperate with me..

On 27th to 29th of mac i went to DIGI Advisor and Commander camp...it was a reali fun and the coolest camp i nvr went b4...after the whole camp i felt reali relize in evrything had happen in the past...i felt like so light and had alot of passion in doing work...even thou this camp we whn thru alot of hard time, not enuff slp,lost voice and etc...but we truly enjoy overall and appreciate every single moment...:D
On the 1st day we reach DIGI HQ abt 7 and den we whn in to the office and it is raining outside...i was stunt by the whole building which make me felt amazed...is like so gigantic company with nice design..while we reach the 1st plc we wanted to go so much is the toilet cos we had stuck in the bus for more than 4 hrs..:''( after the toilet,we depart to the seminar room...at the seminar room we felt reali tired and hungry cos we had no lunch and had stuck in the bus for few hrs..hehe...after register ourselves we located a plc to sit and to our stuff with starving....:D but few minutes later after we say we are starving we whn t had dinner b4 the prog start..we had reali god dinner...reali good and superb dinner which we unexpected so much..thks DIGI....:D

After the delicious dinner we had we visit the whole company and we start our prog by knwing ppl around and have sum short clip which had prepared...den our honourable speaker U2 Kumar came up to start the whole prog..after a short tok he gave we whn to our 1st wrkshop with staring a simple game...

whr tis game actually teach how to cooperate as a team to win a point...den we learn more abt personality thing and we also learn how to care for our buddy...whn they call us to find a buddy which is different campuses i was so so worry abt it cos i reali dunno how find...but Thks God i found one buddy name Sangitha which a reali sweet and nice gal...after knw her we nid to do sumthing which is hard to our buddy which i dun willing want to do but had no choice to follow it..heheh..but thks God she reali understandin person..i felt sorry thou i little ganas at 1st cos the passion coming in me and had motivated me to do thing..:D anyway i had alot of fun thru out the 1st day even it is reali tired..:D after tat we end the whole wrkshop by singing a song and knwing whr we stay and who we stay with...

after derpartring from HQ to the hotel i wanted to bath so much cos its make me felt so so uneasy..hehehe....after tat me and sherlyn went to mamak and join the other in mamak...and me,shaun, sherlyn and another guy whr just knew him at the table which name robin...:D(nice to meet u) we ply "cho dai di"...i was so hapi for kip winning...hahaha...LOL...

den me and sherlyn depart bck to the hotel and do our assignment tat had given out to us....and we wrote till 4 am and depart to slp...tat time reali tired cos we nid to wake up at 7am..:(but still we had fun.....

TO BE CONTINUE>>>>>>>>>
STAY TUNE>>>>>>>>>>

PS:prt will b up soon.....

LOve,
eve_gal

It is well with my soul....

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

There is story about this song which reali make me shock out my life.. Every time listen to this song i felt that the writer had reali strong faith and he able to stand strong on any storm tat come his way...

Well,let me share the story abt this song and the writer...
Here we go>>>>>

Spafford was born on October 20, 1828 in North Troy, New York. He was a successful lawyer in Chicago who maintained a keen interest in Christian activities, deeply spiritual and devoted to the scriptures.

Sometime in 1871, there is a fire in Chicago heavily devastated the city, and the months before that Spafford had invested hugely in real estate by the shore of Lake Michigan. The disaster greatly wiped out his holdings. But before the fire, Spafford also experienced the loss of his son named Horatio at his age of four years due to scarlet fever.

Two years after the fire, Horatio Spafford planned a trip to Europe for him and his family(anna-wife[Anna Larssen, later Americanized to Lawson, was born in Stavanger, Norway, in 1842. Horatio was immediately attracted by Anna's beauty and intelligence when she attended his Sunday school class in Chicago. When Horatio realized that Anna, fourteen years younger than he, was only fifteen, he arranged for three years tuition at a boarding school near Chicago before the idea of marriage could be discussed. The couple married in 1861.] ; daughther-Annie, Maggie, Bessie, and Tanetta). He wanted a rest for his wife and four daughters, and also to assist Moody and Sankey in one of their evangelistic campaigns in Great Britain. He was not meant to travel with his family. The day in November they were due to depart, Spafford had a last minute business transaction and had to stay behind in Chicago. Nevertheless, he still sent his wife and four daughters to travel as scheduled on the S.S. Ville du Havre, expecting to follow in a few days. On November 22, the ship laden with his wife and daughters was struck by the Lockhearn, an English vessel, and sank in few minutes.

After the survivors were finally landed somewhere at Cardiff, Wales, Spafford's wife cabled her husband with two simple words, "Saved alone." After receiving Anna's telegram, Horatio immediately left Chicago to bring his wife home. On the Atlantic crossing, the captain of his ship called Horatio to his cabin to tell him that they were passing over the spot where his four daughters had perished. He wrote to Rachel, his wife's half-sister, "On Thursday last we passed over the spot where she went down, in mid-ocean, the waters three miles deep. But I do not think of our dear ones there. They are safe, folded, the dear lambs." And at the same time he wrote this most poignant text so significantly descriptive of his own personal grief – "When sorrows like sea billows roll..." The hymn "It is Well with My Soul" was born.

It is noteworthy that Horatio Spafford did not dwell on the theme of life's sorrows and trials, instead, focused in the third stanza on the redemptive work of Christ, and in the fourth verse, anticipates His glorious second coming.

"My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul."

~THE END~

So after the story abt these song...how everyone felt??does u felt poignant on thing had happen all this while??why every time we face dilemma we enable to strong on our own feet??does we felt ashamed after knowing how does the writer go thru his life without broking down..Wat shud we do on gaining back all the strength and faith for our self??how shud we move on even thr is stumbling block stopping us to move??

I will leave those question to rewind in out mind as we move on in life...the is no other way but....................................................................................................................................................................

TO TRUST ON HIM(JESUS)

Only Him understand each and everyone of us and do continue draw strength from Him..I wan to thanks this song writer had let me understand wat kind of life we might face...at tis moment or in future..i do appreciate every single diffficulties tat had happen in my life...even it is hard to go thru but God had been a faithfull DAD and He want me stand strong for myself(which all the while i was not)..Thanks again for letting how worthful my life is to be in this moment even thou thr is up and down going on in my life......

PS:while writting all this my ears felt like rollin down and this song had ply at tis moment alot of time...i felt pressure with thing tat had mess around but i will stand strong cos i knw u are THERE...just rite THERE

love,
eveee_gal <3

time goes off and on..so do mood..

Hi everyone..it is late i knw i am still awake to finish my audit...haiz...anyway just wanted to blog a while...hehe...just update wat had happen recently...it seem thr is alot thing goin worng...i do not want to say in detail but it seem to tuff for everyone aorund tat i saw...well...one more prob is exam which is around the corner..i am so scared and worry abt so do ppl around me...exam seem to a fear to us as student but some does not fear it at all due to they are very well prepared...:)

Tell the truth i am enjoyin study audit now i found alot of joy and fun with it...well econs to me seem to...b...bored...hehe...well will try to make it fun...well i kind of worry abt MA,FM,and also FAP....but guess wat i realize tat today i study FAP in detail actually i could understand and i can do past year..i was so hapi..thks God for the wonderful knowledge He had gave me...:)thks Daddy...love u...XOXO...:)

I still one more day to exam..i kind of worry the coming paper...reali...so hope ppl around could pray for me tot...:)....those who pray,wish and etc....>>>>i will want to wish u thks....:)

I shud off to concentrate bck my audit...^^nite...GBU!!XOXO

Love,
eve_gal

God reveal me answer??

Hi guys and gal...i congrats those who had finish their exam while i wish all the best to those who still preparing exam...well..today is a tires day for me...study was productive...loves audit...hehe..

Nothing much to blog but just do a quick share wat thing happenin around la...

As i had blog my abt thing had happen on past 3 days...and past 2 days my feeling was just okies...nothing much till night i just felt the hurt whn the gal say something...i do care for her feeling tat why i kind of sensitive..i reali do not wan thing happen and leave bad image in her and back as a memories...well..tat night itself i reali cant control my feeling but just burse out lidat...i did not hope abt it but it still happen...and thks God and thks kel and lice for being with and let me share it out...at that moment i knw i could only turn to God and i reali wan to find someone to say to but i just could not..and the person i can find and tok to is on finalz...so i do not want to call up and disturb...huh...but anyhow it had done on tat night itself by some1 praying for me and i just felt better after tat...

While yesterday was a tired day cos i slept at 7 something in the morning....study till very late....and i went to cls in the afternoon...till i tok to kumz(dear) and she told me abt a verse which is matthew 7:7-8...and guess wat in my personal time with God and the verse seem to appear again..is God revealing me something or God is tell an answer for those question tat i had doubt with it...what is all abt???only thing tat i reali can do is kip praying and wait see wat Daddy gonna do with it...

Tellin the truth i missin something and i knw i shud not miss it so much...bcos it will make me lost my concentration on study...i try to minimise it....i nid alot prayer to cover me and i reali hope tat those who read this can pray for me(everything>>studies,relationship,time management,health and etc), my mum,family and frenz...nothing much to blog sum more so i will stop here la....XD

~~good night everyone!!~~

Love;
eve_gal

New year; new beginning..

Hey everyone...how u all have been done??time is just like the sea wave where it swap away 2008 and bring 2009 to this moment...so welcome lovely 2009...well,how was everyone celebration of new year???had alot of fun?enjoyment?happy?lonely?sad?lovely?or???

i tot my celebration will be bored and lonely..at tat time itself i had decided just go to church only but i did not expected everything seem like had planned by God and i just felt like its like His way....^^..at tat early morning and tat day itself i actually undecided to go because i actually had to place to go...at tat nite itself actually had decided with my answer but it still is a shaky answer to provide bcos i still dunno how to tell the gal i will b away...but i was so surprise tat she SMS me say tat she is not going and more prefer just celebrate with her family and frenz around...at tat moment i knew my ans can b provided to my housemate...so new year actually i celebrate with my housemate and some christian houses mate at klang....

tok abt klang...well,i will say it is a factory area and the road sometimes is reali bz..it is also a plc tat famous with 'bah kut teh'...haha..klang is not the 1st time i visit which tis will b my second time....tat day itself we went to church and attended the activity tat had provided...tat nite itself we actually wanted to celebrate at cafer but unlucky all cafe are fully book and its full with ppl...so we decided just celebrate at my housemate plc but spontaneously we had celebrate at mamak stall...haha...intersting yeah!!well..eventhou is mamak but it is blessed tat we actually can celebrate thr...^^tat time are reali near to 12 d and few minutes later we countdown together...haha...(around ppl was lookin at us)

tat nite everyone slept very late and everyone is havin its own fun...sum are chattin and sum are plying card,sum is plying with sequence, and sum oredi slept..haha....well..admit it i slept very late which i slept at 5...and the next day nid to wake up at 9 to go to church...but thks God i am noot sleepy at service....hehe...after tat we went to 'bah kut teh'.....i still felt malacca nicer haha....(sori klang ppl)^^..and we head for little shoppin at JJ thr...after tat we heading bck to TBR...at tat time is oredi dinner time d...everyone are so tired...well,i tot come bck home i will sleep but i did not...huh..and tat time i was preparing my dinner and after everything i start my study till 2 something and slept...well is seem the day is so short and pack with activity...haha...well, to those who celebrate alone is ok...anyhow, u are not alone alwiz cause thr is sumone much more special with u alwiz and had celebrated with u alwiz....try to guess who la!!XD...

it is late now...i guess i better get some rest...u all too yeah!!have a great day ahead on 2009!!have fun!!GBU all!!~xoxo~

LOve,
eve_gal

special blessed season eventhou is tired!

Hi everyone...time passing very fast whr Christmas already over...hope everyone had a great Christmas yeah!! well i have a great time with family even thou is tired....hehe..after i came back from kl i had to get ready myself cos nid to travel to JB whn my bro is bck..well b4 depart someone actually propose to me...i was little shock of it but still ok la..cos i had use too d..shud i say i could actually sense it...well drop tat off...do not want to tok much abt it...haha..XD...well me and family depart here at 5 something...the journey is reali long and tired..bside we were travel with the small car...cut it short we reach thr at 7 something...and it was raining and the traffic was kinda jam a little and we are straving...XD..here are some picture......
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~1st up:the hotel[grand paragon] ~2nd up:the room
~3rd:the bathroom ~4th:a pic in the hotel room...
~coming up 5th:room number ~6th dinner!!yummy!!(satay)
~7th:drinks(shud cal dessert- lou wei) ~8th:the main course(curry fish)
~9th:deco of the hotel ~10th me at lobby hotel
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some pic of the night view near the swimming pool...

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guess wat the swimming pool is oval shape de and it summore so windy on tat nite...havin a gud fresh air tat time....and tat time actually there is free admission chritsmas party are on air....haha...but i do not wanna to join together it seem like for those who goes pub or disco de...XD....well next post comin up soon...temporary tat much la...haha...too tired d....gud nite everyone....^^..miss u all....muackss....hugss...

Love,
eve_gal

God's love which the everlasting love..

I blog a song to you all 1st..this song reli do touch me personally i reli let me realize even more wat He wanted to remind us as His children!!

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

thank God for being so so generous to each and everyone on us...

Well, November had ended and to look back the past i ever had in November it is such so painful month i ever go through with full tears and sadness tat impacted my life so much...on the bright sight i can alot of miracles happen and God's love!!well, anyhow time past and December had impacted in tis moment..so i bet u nid to stay tune to see wat will happen tis month through!!well...i have no much hope oni hope everything really goes well and all my dreamz and hope sucess in life....i dun wanna b a loser a ppl around cos i wan to b the outstanding one tat stand out God light in this moment and forever!!Father i knew u hear me and i knw my prayer to you u had heard me and it will b answer by u bcos whoever ask will b given..so i will b still in the present of ou to see miracles and wonders on how u impact my life...i loves u thee!!
times gettin latez i guess i gotta slpif not i will b XX...XD

LOve,
evegal^^

time reckeless!!

It had been a long day i had no blog so today seen i am free and tired so i blog lo..XD...time seem flies so fast and it again reaching to december...past whole week it had made being so so tired...and i just finish one coursework,one presentation and also assignment!!hmm....past few got little emotional but now gettin better in life..well..thing tat happen it will alwiz happen..it can help it cos could not predict at all...and i have learn how to let go something tat i reli wanted but guess wat now it had turn even more better but i could put too much hope in cos worry tat if one day it fail wat will happen den???my coursework was good just did not knw i do correctly or not...hehe..as for presentation was extremely good!!wee...shud b A d...wahaha...hmm...yesterday had practices for x'mas and was ok..;) just kinda worry cos next week is my last practice and i had to be on stage d...huh...wat shall i do??hmm...past few day i had let go thing tat i love so so much and God had multiple even in better way.. well i hope God will continue surprise me and i will keep prayin for this thing i love so much...i reli hope it will happen one day...this is reli my hope and dream...i bet u were guessin wat is abt..hehe..hmm..i will not say for now but whn it come den i will let u all knw ya!!haha..everything seem so so fast and is already sunday and bring along the end of november.....;) well...it is reli a long day through and i had not reli touch anything and week 14 seem to get closer and closer and i will be comin to the end of the sem again...this time reli do pray hard and i must reli do well...wait....not only do well but must score the best result of all...i must do it andi can do it...i nid to win this race no matter wat...have faith ya!!hehe...

Christmas getting near and i got some present for frenz but how abt myself???hmm...well..i dunno wat i reli want but if thr is ppl give me i will willingly acccept it no matter wat even it is a great big hugss from them i also dun mind...wahahaha...XD..i bet i gotta slp d if not tomorrow not cute and adorable liao...haha...hm...well...get latez if i nvr slp will continue crazy d....lol...gud nite!!

Love,
evegal