life are no short,cause thr are still long way to go....

life reali are not tat short as u thought.....

this sem is my last sem...thank you Lord for bring me thru out this life tat i have been...it is not easy to go thru but u had been faithful to me....*hope my cumin exam result will b gud**kip my finger cross*

thing had been come and go this whole years...i had finnaly let go every single thing tat been a barrier in my life....it is not easy to go thru but thank God i had come out for it.....realise those change i had been again....
---->been closer with cell group member<3
---->gettin closer with walk with God<3
---->getting more lovin with family<3
---->getting more strict in my own personal life
---->been stronger and more frim in those thing that might hurt me
---->willing to accept failure and trial

i am startin to learn alot in life.....i reali appreciate the time and tis time reali realised tat i can b mature as nvr thought of it....so nice and i feel cool...

this sem is short sem within 7 week i will finish everything...just hopin everything will b smooth...i been choose to b a cls representative this sem...well,at 1st reali though it a burden but i will just took up this responsible..i knw God will guide me thru....so now in the position of cls representative,Digi CA(mayb quitin) and soon a worker for vincent...XD

been hapi thru out my life now....alot of joy and fun havin together ard especially with my cell...yesterday celebrated alvin kor kor bday..heheh...surprise was gud to b done..

1st time make fish steak but thks God it taste good...heheh...mash potato and also salad....hehehe
simple and nice...XD

den again cheese cake.....^^

recall friday had a fun day with my cell member....we went to eat and jln jln and watch movie...we had watch http://asianmediawiki.com/All%27s_Well,_Ends_Well_2010

This movie was alrite but little blur and not reali understand wat they wan and wat is all abt....cos is so messy....but thr are certain thing tat is funny lo....XD (rating:5/10)

lookin forward with those thing is cumin up next....heheh....

cheerz all the way....

evelynz....:P
ps:lookin forward for later chap goh mei dinner...XD

wat is tis life mean to b..

I am living a life with full of miserable and trial...

wat shud i do??


how shud i react??


how shud i feel??


i dun hope to live a life like tat but mayb it had plan thru out which i hav to be....i been living in a life with fear and disappointment...

like the feelin of love...
everytime wanted to fully grab whole it i will surely lost it bit part by part...
everytime i step deeper i surely lost control on standin firm...

i dun hope the day come...
i dun hope the time had reach to the stage...

exam life....
everytime i been confident with wat i can but i alwiz been disappointed....
everytime i been stressing so much but the outcome seem to dissatisfied by ppl...

why??
why i alwiz like tat....

i am lost the purpose of life to b a human??
i been throw to a dungeon whr full of fire...
go thru suffer...
bitterness life??

love,
eve_gal

The road tat decided...

Well, life are full with disappointment even how hard u strive thru out the outcome u still nid to bear with..

I would say God has his plan thru out...we just nid to take time and look thru everything...Today,everything to me seem plain..yesterday i reali felt 100% pressure whr it seem to drive me mad and drive me to depression...I wake up without any mood and my mom sick which make me dun wan to leave home but i have no choice i nid to settle stuff on hand..Well, i cook porridge for b4 i leave i clear every single thing at home too...Well, i leave with a heavy heart...i step into the car my tears just cant stop falling dwn and i just can recall everything clear wat had happen yesterday...

Tis reali pressure...anyway i had decide whr to go and wat step shud i move..i kip paryin in the bus whn i way bck to kl and i hope thr is ans for everything which hidden all the while...If tis wat God wan me to b i will b humble in everything i nid to do...At the moment i reali miss sum1 dearly...

I wish him all the best in exam tomorrow...i had faith in him which he can do it and i will pray for him..*dear,i miss u and i love u so much...and i knw thr is way out for a reason..no worries i willing to wait and long for u cos i reali do love u....just do ur best k...love u...*

I hope thing will goes well i dun hope this like this happen again...:D LAstly b4 i reali leave tis blog i wan to dedicate a song to my lovely dear darling..u knw who u are...^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6pW_q1PvH0 *clicky*

wat shud i do??

Wat shud i do??wat shud i do??wat shud i do??how??how??

Those question just cant fail comin into my mind...askin me how and wat shud i reali do??
My future...my dream...my hope...my achievement...
Wat reali i can do??

I reali lose in the divider which i reali dunno which road i shud take and how shud i move on in my life and my future..what shud i reali do now??how shud i move on??Is tis i shud go thru in life??but reali why??I knw i does not have the rite to ask abt it cos tis had been plan out in life and it had been set...i just nid to go thru..

Well,at the 1st moment i tot everything settle but it seem nope...cos any decision i make it will lead to a wrong track which i reali dun hope...i reali upset and i had enuff with tears and pressure..but wat can i reali do now...everything seem to b so pack whr i nid to decide by tis week..tis is reali a hard time for me to go thru...:(

I reali hope sum1 can b with me but he seem to b no time for me and i understand how he felt too..i dun blame him even he had does something which reali hurt me at the moment but i shud not pressure him...i forgive and i reali dun blame him for he doin tat cos i reali love him even how many time he goin to hurt me..

At the moment, i felt everything leave me very far and i felt i am so so useless and helpless whr thr is no whr i could belong to.. :( My dad seem to give me alot pressure and i reali dunno how to handle it..i might lead to deepression...well who knw...no one knw... :(

Anyway i can do much and Lord i surrender everything in ur hand and oni u had the plan and the answer for every question i ask in ur name reveal to me and let me knw wat is the right choice i shud choose...Amen..

PS:i love u dear...no matter wat i will still forgive u cos i reali dun wan to lose u in my life..and i will broke the fear...trust me we can do it..:)

love,
eve_gal

how to move on??

Currently i am facing alot of problem that reali give me alot of headache...i dunno wat shud i do and whr shud i go???i kip ask myself shud i stay or live??i reali dunno wat to do...my life is seem to blind in front..i felt so upset after all incident plus i miss sum1 dearly..i reali miss him..

Well i am in the consideration of stayin or move on??i dunno i am really upset and dunno what shud i do...i knw God has a plan for me but still i could not sit and do nothing..Today sermon reali speak to and tell me nvr give up cos each time we fall God will give us hope again..i knw but wat shud i reali do now???i facing multiple problem now..study,life,relationship and etc..i dunno whr to turn to...i nid strenght..

I was prayin and seekin His word but sumtime i reali felt of givin up every single thing in my life but God bless sum1 in me and make me fell i am not alone at tis moment i had him to be with too..if i reali give up how will he help me up??even thou i do not hear any support from him and comfort word from him or he did not show any concern to me but i knw tat he still care and concern everything abt me..i can feel his heart beat whr tellin me:'dear dear dun give up in everything u doin now...' tis reali make me as a motivation...

I felt so uneasy discomfort every time i face tis but still i am satisfied with wat is given to me and had been bless in me..God had bless sum1 in my midst which i reali appreciate it..we arte not together by all sudden by we are together by plan and also love tat pull us together..

Even the continue road how hard to move on..i will still move on i will nvr give every single thing in my life...At this moment i reali hope thr is sum1 bside me to comfort and tell me dun worry..everything will goes fine but i knw it will not hapen..well,he is bz and he felt pressure too i reali dun hope to bring with more problem in him now..as long i knw he alwiz will b i am hapi wilth it..i will understand..as i promise him to b a better ppl tat he hope for...

Well, i decided take the step out which i goin to mmu to require my edu...well i knw after this require i will be more headache and thing tat normally shud happen will all gone...whr i could not meet him even he will goin to kl..but i knw we cant plan bcos thing change..

i really hope everything will not change and i hope God will see me thru...

lastly, i hope ppl will pray for me..
ps: dear i love u and i dun hope on losing u in my life..bcos u been a blessing for me...

study study study!!!!

hi everyone...
how life is getting up??i hope u all enjoy thru the month....:D

i will blog sum of the promises to u all today....:D
1stly,as u all knw my exam is up..so i had been study hard for i...i reali hope this time it will reali make a different between....i dun to b disappointed again....the disappoint at past had been enuff for me.....here are sum pic whr me and my sis(simone) had study in starbuck..*amazed*










well,there are more picture but lazy wanna post up...hehe.....
up to the next blog regardin today!!

The mix and match of pice and puzzle of life..

Hi readers....
It had been another long time on not blogging again...so so sorry...i had been bz with preparation of exam with kinda stress up...but still strive thru alot...

I had been promise post up but i did not fullfill it...so so sorry..i promise i will do so for the up coming post...

Just live update a little and part of puzzle of my life these few days....
There is alot thing happening thru out with my expectation and it seem to a tuff week...but still thks God for everything cos with HIM i reali do not knw whr to draw strength from....

Well,i admit i am in a relationship...i will tel u tat this relationship is not easy...At the 1st moment i am in i felt tat he is just treat me like a part time gf whr whn he nid me he sms me but whn not he will just leave me alone...tell i felt it thou i kip tellin myself he is buzz with stuff and so on...but than i still cant take the fact...i was reali upset whn found out he drinks and i disappoint on not bothering me...i was reali angry yet upset at the same time..At the moment i reali dunno wat to do i just felt the broke dwn and i felt a moment on rushin on this realtionship and i had done wrong decision..

I had been kip prayin for this relationship...even thou he is not a christian but stil he is God creation...whr God love everyone of us in this world no matter wat u are or wat color u are...without failing i kip paryin i knw thr will b a change in everything we done...tat nite itself i tok to him and i felt ok but thing seem to not tat well after tat...well..i start to think alot again...haiz...but thks God he actually prepared a way out for me...whrone of the nite we spend the whole nite on rising issues which happening thru out and we gettin to knw each other even more then b4...well all glory still goes to HIM...without HIM this thing would not happen....

my relationship with him now are more stable than b4...but then i still nid alot of prayer to cover it...cos prayer make different in our life...^^

well,upcomin thr still 3 more paper on hand which i nid to sit comin sat,mon and tues...i reali pray tat God do give me strenght and knowledge on doin well...i reali nid to study cos at the same time my bf coming dwn to kl..so i bet i had not much time on this and tat..so i nid a good time management....i pray hard for it...Lord pls help me yeah!!!

I guess i will stop here for not and get bck to my study now...thks GOd for everything....
PS:kip prayin for me yeah!!thks...

LOve,
eve_gal

A brand new start,,,,

Hey everyone...time past so fast till we did not realize...now i am in sem 3 d...
and it had been a while i had not blog for so long..i am truly apologize..^^

Anyway,I miss the life back in hometown..and i do appreciate every moment i stay at home and every moment i spend time with family...reali fun....but now i am back again to KL and college...well,cls was fine and everything goes smoothly....^^this sem i will b having MYOB and also Tamadun.....hehe..i promise i will study hard and do my very best to do strive through my study...well thou is hard to go through but still i had no choice to success it and make my dream come true..

It had being a hard time life in KL..but i does reali wan to thks God for everything for being with me..if not idun think i am able to strive through till now..:)

There is few post tat i wan to update it..but time does not allow me to do so..hence,i will b update it soon..i promise..

Past few days i just felt i am not being me..i dunno why but i try to find out the reason..i dun dare to b sure the reason which had been found but just hide watever i could..i dun wan to turn bck to the old issue i been had for the past yrs whn i was in KL..i hope i will not face the same thing again...*God i nid u Now*

Anyway,i will b off now..i promise the lastest update will b up soon..BYEE!!

Ps:i knw i miss u but not now plz...
Pss:i nid God present..let me understand everything i dun walk in a direction which is not blong to me...

Love:
eveee_gal

time goes off and on..so do mood..

Hi everyone..it is late i knw i am still awake to finish my audit...haiz...anyway just wanted to blog a while...hehe...just update wat had happen recently...it seem thr is alot thing goin worng...i do not want to say in detail but it seem to tuff for everyone aorund tat i saw...well...one more prob is exam which is around the corner..i am so scared and worry abt so do ppl around me...exam seem to a fear to us as student but some does not fear it at all due to they are very well prepared...:)

Tell the truth i am enjoyin study audit now i found alot of joy and fun with it...well econs to me seem to...b...bored...hehe...well will try to make it fun...well i kind of worry abt MA,FM,and also FAP....but guess wat i realize tat today i study FAP in detail actually i could understand and i can do past year..i was so hapi..thks God for the wonderful knowledge He had gave me...:)thks Daddy...love u...XOXO...:)

I still one more day to exam..i kind of worry the coming paper...reali...so hope ppl around could pray for me tot...:)....those who pray,wish and etc....>>>>i will want to wish u thks....:)

I shud off to concentrate bck my audit...^^nite...GBU!!XOXO

Love,
eve_gal

random...

studying but seem the mood gettin bit by bit...huh...i dunno why...i miss the day i had....i pray over it and will see wat will happen...i now i shoud wait and i nid to have alot faith with it..gah!!bck to study...mood swingin!!haiz...miss the person...

God reveal me answer??

Hi guys and gal...i congrats those who had finish their exam while i wish all the best to those who still preparing exam...well..today is a tires day for me...study was productive...loves audit...hehe..

Nothing much to blog but just do a quick share wat thing happenin around la...

As i had blog my abt thing had happen on past 3 days...and past 2 days my feeling was just okies...nothing much till night i just felt the hurt whn the gal say something...i do care for her feeling tat why i kind of sensitive..i reali do not wan thing happen and leave bad image in her and back as a memories...well..tat night itself i reali cant control my feeling but just burse out lidat...i did not hope abt it but it still happen...and thks God and thks kel and lice for being with and let me share it out...at that moment i knw i could only turn to God and i reali wan to find someone to say to but i just could not..and the person i can find and tok to is on finalz...so i do not want to call up and disturb...huh...but anyhow it had done on tat night itself by some1 praying for me and i just felt better after tat...

While yesterday was a tired day cos i slept at 7 something in the morning....study till very late....and i went to cls in the afternoon...till i tok to kumz(dear) and she told me abt a verse which is matthew 7:7-8...and guess wat in my personal time with God and the verse seem to appear again..is God revealing me something or God is tell an answer for those question tat i had doubt with it...what is all abt???only thing tat i reali can do is kip praying and wait see wat Daddy gonna do with it...

Tellin the truth i missin something and i knw i shud not miss it so much...bcos it will make me lost my concentration on study...i try to minimise it....i nid alot prayer to cover me and i reali hope tat those who read this can pray for me(everything>>studies,relationship,time management,health and etc), my mum,family and frenz...nothing much to blog sum more so i will stop here la....XD

~~good night everyone!!~~

Love;
eve_gal

New year; new beginning..

Hey everyone...how u all have been done??time is just like the sea wave where it swap away 2008 and bring 2009 to this moment...so welcome lovely 2009...well,how was everyone celebration of new year???had alot of fun?enjoyment?happy?lonely?sad?lovely?or???

i tot my celebration will be bored and lonely..at tat time itself i had decided just go to church only but i did not expected everything seem like had planned by God and i just felt like its like His way....^^..at tat early morning and tat day itself i actually undecided to go because i actually had to place to go...at tat nite itself actually had decided with my answer but it still is a shaky answer to provide bcos i still dunno how to tell the gal i will b away...but i was so surprise tat she SMS me say tat she is not going and more prefer just celebrate with her family and frenz around...at tat moment i knew my ans can b provided to my housemate...so new year actually i celebrate with my housemate and some christian houses mate at klang....

tok abt klang...well,i will say it is a factory area and the road sometimes is reali bz..it is also a plc tat famous with 'bah kut teh'...haha..klang is not the 1st time i visit which tis will b my second time....tat day itself we went to church and attended the activity tat had provided...tat nite itself we actually wanted to celebrate at cafer but unlucky all cafe are fully book and its full with ppl...so we decided just celebrate at my housemate plc but spontaneously we had celebrate at mamak stall...haha...intersting yeah!!well..eventhou is mamak but it is blessed tat we actually can celebrate thr...^^tat time are reali near to 12 d and few minutes later we countdown together...haha...(around ppl was lookin at us)

tat nite everyone slept very late and everyone is havin its own fun...sum are chattin and sum are plying card,sum is plying with sequence, and sum oredi slept..haha....well..admit it i slept very late which i slept at 5...and the next day nid to wake up at 9 to go to church...but thks God i am noot sleepy at service....hehe...after tat we went to 'bah kut teh'.....i still felt malacca nicer haha....(sori klang ppl)^^..and we head for little shoppin at JJ thr...after tat we heading bck to TBR...at tat time is oredi dinner time d...everyone are so tired...well,i tot come bck home i will sleep but i did not...huh..and tat time i was preparing my dinner and after everything i start my study till 2 something and slept...well is seem the day is so short and pack with activity...haha...well, to those who celebrate alone is ok...anyhow, u are not alone alwiz cause thr is sumone much more special with u alwiz and had celebrated with u alwiz....try to guess who la!!XD...

it is late now...i guess i better get some rest...u all too yeah!!have a great day ahead on 2009!!have fun!!GBU all!!~xoxo~

LOve,
eve_gal

the ending of a year....

Hey everyone...2008 is ending very very soon...couple just swap and 2009 is here...everyone was preparing their resolution of the year rite...so do i...hmm..well i dun hope for anything from ppl but wat i do reali hope is my dream will success and i will be grow more in His word...well,wat i do reali hope is:

1. My relationship with God will be much much closer and have more faith with him..
2. Me and family will live in a proper nice way and happy life
3. My result with full flying color just to glorified His name
4. My mum and dad health will be improve better(i do reali love them with bottom my heart)
5. Have true frenz in life and sum1 tat i can share my up and down
   
6. Have a great life ahead with spiritual fruit in it
   
7. Have a gud surprise in my bday
8. Hope to see everyone around me living happily
9. Hope my dream and wishes come true something special
10. See improvement in me(if anyone notice pls inform)

Well tat all i reali have in mind nothing much...wat is over for this year will be in past tense i will not recall in me again..sorry gal and guy for wat i have doe wrong in life...i reali felt sorry for it...especially charision and sum of CFer----->i dunno how many apologize i nid to say but i reali do felt sorry to u all i dunno why but i still felt is my right to say so cos i might do something tat i reali o hurt u all or say some word tat hurt everyone feeling...bside sorry dad and mum for being not a child tat u wan and u hope but i will be the outstanding gal tat u all hope in me and saw in me...i reali want to made u all proud but in 2008 had been a unsuccessful one...in this new comin year i will try all my best,afford,life,and everything just made u all proud and knw i am the outstanding gal tat u nvr had...sorry again daddy and mummy..love u all so much...
In my past life i reali had a bad life and i do not knw why mayb is just not my year...thing had happen i and thing i wanted desperately without waitin alwiz will cause sumthing in it...i had knw wat wrong and wat had happen within..in this new comin year i hope to see more miracles in it den human work...i want to depend on God work den ppl around..i dislike pls ppl and i dislike being left out by ppl around i knw tat no one like it also so do i...so i hope tis year will b better den before..reali do...(God hope u hear me)so i to cut it short i dun be lengthy so wish everyone had a

BLESSED 2009 and a great year ahead!!

time reckeless!!

It had been a long day i had no blog so today seen i am free and tired so i blog lo..XD...time seem flies so fast and it again reaching to december...past whole week it had made being so so tired...and i just finish one coursework,one presentation and also assignment!!hmm....past few got little emotional but now gettin better in life..well..thing tat happen it will alwiz happen..it can help it cos could not predict at all...and i have learn how to let go something tat i reli wanted but guess wat now it had turn even more better but i could put too much hope in cos worry tat if one day it fail wat will happen den???my coursework was good just did not knw i do correctly or not...hehe..as for presentation was extremely good!!wee...shud b A d...wahaha...hmm...yesterday had practices for x'mas and was ok..;) just kinda worry cos next week is my last practice and i had to be on stage d...huh...wat shall i do??hmm...past few day i had let go thing tat i love so so much and God had multiple even in better way.. well i hope God will continue surprise me and i will keep prayin for this thing i love so much...i reli hope it will happen one day...this is reli my hope and dream...i bet u were guessin wat is abt..hehe..hmm..i will not say for now but whn it come den i will let u all knw ya!!haha..everything seem so so fast and is already sunday and bring along the end of november.....;) well...it is reli a long day through and i had not reli touch anything and week 14 seem to get closer and closer and i will be comin to the end of the sem again...this time reli do pray hard and i must reli do well...wait....not only do well but must score the best result of all...i must do it andi can do it...i nid to win this race no matter wat...have faith ya!!hehe...

Christmas getting near and i got some present for frenz but how abt myself???hmm...well..i dunno wat i reli want but if thr is ppl give me i will willingly acccept it no matter wat even it is a great big hugss from them i also dun mind...wahahaha...XD..i bet i gotta slp d if not tomorrow not cute and adorable liao...haha...hm...well...get latez if i nvr slp will continue crazy d....lol...gud nite!!

Love,
evegal