Blessings

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

(Chorus)
'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if the thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Chorus

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home

Chorus

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

I heard this song when i was in office working...Tis song reali touch me....I recall thru out the journey bck to feb and hw i have been thru with it.....Thru out tis 3 mth i have been in a truly disaste and learn how to choose my own life as well as my future..I been doubting and confuse in a period as too many thing are unexpected to happen. All this started whn i 1st enter into deloitte for training where everything does not goes smoothly..1stly are my rented house issue whr i have irresponsible tenant and more problem kip cuming up...which i reali have to find way to face it....after the issues for rented house...i got a unreasonable boss and sarcastic him...

Follow up my relationship have suddenly broken into piece without a valid reason...Slowly everything from up turn down to zero base...I whn into worst deep emotion...I even think leave tis placeses just lidat...But after all i re-think that He will alwiz faithful to me and He will work our sumthing in my life...Everday and every week went by with up and dwn....I take it to fight over all and i reali want to thank God that i had get over stages to stages...

He its great cos everything are work in a way to give us a great outcome...=D

congratulation darling~~~

So fast its a friday again and another week gone just lidat.....currently its week 8 and time reali passing very fast cos week 9 its coming....last assignment dateline soon...oh no~~~~i did not even know how to start write tis assignment...i need guidance from God....Daddy...pls help me...:D

Thru out tis days,i feeling bad and would wanted to apologize to Daddy so much....sori for not being an obedient child...and i knw tat i shud not blame thing and push away my guiltiness to make myself betta off..Hence, a big apologize to You Daddy...forgive me as i change myself each day to be like You...=D

I also wan to say thank you Daddy for being such a great provider...i am super happy as i been told by my darling that he got his internship job...i am so thankful and praise the Lord that he had took away my worried...^^

darling also tell me tat he is scared and worried tat he could not cope in his internship...hmm...well,darling dun worried abt internship...i knw u can do it well cos u have the potential to be outstanding...jia you ya darling....*hugs*

PS:once again darling,congratz for getting your internship job and i am so proud of u...keep it up darling and make sure u do well in ur internship...dear dear love u and will alwiz support darling no matter wat happen...*hugs* ^^

The greatest love

Today, wake up...my tummy ache...T.T i feel so so sick but i still nid to drag myself to clean up the house and study my test...i kinda worried abt my test but i think and believe i can make it thru....^^

Even i am in that condition but i feel great cos i recall wat darling told me yesterday that its so lovely to me....i am glad that u feel han fuk not oni bcos u have u lovely family but to have me too....=) thank you darling for putting me in ur heart...*hehe* Thank you darling for loving me from the bottom of my heart....i feel so warm cos u have love me so much...*hugs*

I also feel warm today cos darling take care and concern abt me even i have tummy ache....thank you darling for tell me wat to do whn i am tummy ache and take care of me so much...I love u Darling.....^^

Anyway,wish we all have a great blessed test tomorrow and hope that we all do well in it....^^
Darling...jia you jia you in exam ya....love u much much.....*hugs*

PS:i am missing u...^^

hapi hapi day~~

verse 1
Everytime I leave to head out on the road
I wanna take you with me to save me from the cold
No matter where I go wrong
you'll be there to turn it into right
I will love you every moment of my life

When I'm on an airplane, flyin' cross the sky
I know you're on a trainride, stations passin' by
No matter what the signs say
However in my mind you are by my side
I will love you every moment of my life

Bridge:
everyone misses something
And I know time changes everything
All the love that you have to give
you should give just as lost as you're holding that someone

Verse 2:
I'd travel cross the great lakes to get to where you are
and even if forever wouldn't be too far
so baby when you asked me
to be the leading lady by your side
I promised to love you every moment of my life

I am so hapi yesterday....my darling sing song to me and suddenly felt that he actually do have talent and sounded like aka JJ Lin....LOL

I feel so touch...cos this its the 1st time he sing to me...lol...i will waiting for the one day arrived for him to ply piano to me....=)
I truly feel so thankful to have him...cos he being with me whn i am lonely and alone...even its late and might been questioned by his family he also willing to stay bck with me...T.T (suddenly feel i am so bad) hehe....in the car we were discussing abt food and food.. he told me tat his hse area thr got alot of nice food....but hor nvr bring me go thr eat de...lol...but after that he promised me tat he will bring me go eat thr...=) he also promise me tat he will bring me go 'little genting' aka lookout point...hehehe i told him tat i wan to go to bkt tinggi too...and he also promised jor...lol...*sweet* but sem break la...hahahha *sori darling, for havin me so demanding* XD

Yesterday, we whn out makan dinner together...feel so great~~we whn to a restaurant to makan cos i told him i miss home and i hope to eat sumthing tat got home feel..i also told him tat i wan to eat fish so much...lol so we whn to the restaurant and eat fish plus vege....heheh

At the moment of eating i feel so touch and sweet...i feel i being pamper by him so much...^^

Thanks darling...I will appreciate every moment of u & i will love u every moment of my life....

just one last dance~~

Just one last dance....oh baby...just one last dance

We meet in the night in the Spanish café
I look in your eyes just don't know what to say
It feels like I'm drowning in salty water
A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise
tomorrow will come an it's time to realize
our love has finished forever

how I wish to come with you (wish to come with you)
how I wish we make it through

Chorus:
Just one last dance
before we say goodbye
when we sway and turn round and round and round
it's like the first time
Just one more chance
hold me tight and keep me warm
cause the night is getting cold
and I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar
I'll never forget how romantic they are
but I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one I love

There's no way to come with you
it's the only thing to do

Chorus 3x (until fade)

Just one last dance, just one more chance, just one last dance

Another song that sounded meaningful...i am not sure the true meaning but i will find it out the song true meaning after i watch the movie "one last dance"..i believe it will a touch and loving movie....

I believe in everything in life that its given....i believe in my own relationship whr i will continue to have faith and trust to work tis out....i knw its will not be easy as me and my boyfriend will go thru a tuff situation in life....even its hard to go thru i will still stay with him to go thru tis situation....no matter wat may come in our relationship but i believe if we are firm and we solve it together everything will goes well....

To have a prefect relationship its not easy cos before it turn perfect we have to goes thru alot of trial in life....for now we wan to archive our sucess in study and life as well as in out career....we wan to live in a certain situation...i believe me and my boyfriend will work hard for this....

Once again i wan to tell my darling, jie ming...tat no matter wat i appreciate and thank you for loving me and being with me no matter in wat situation....thank you for being a great boyfriend...thank for teaching me and thanks for guiding me....i will never give up myself as well as u too....thank darling for being with me...thank darling....^^

Lastly,i love u my darling...forever and ever....love u~~~

2 month annivesary darling~~

Our anniversary means a lot,
Much more than any another day;
I celebrate my love for you,
And cherish you in every way.Through passing time, our love still grows,
A caring relationship to explore;
Our life together gets better and better,
And I keep on loving you more and more.

Thanks for being with me all this while and loving me no matter wat happen...even we reali go thru tuff time but i believe tis reali test our love...you been a great boyfriend toward me..even tis relationship its not a 100% perfect relationship but it had ply a great role between us...

Each day grow~~i will continue and kip on loving u~~being with u~~in every single situation~~even thou thr its more down den up or more up den down...i will still with u n loving u~~i will support u in everything u going to do and achieve...

Thanks darling for bearing with me and staying with me...I love u,Yong Jie Ming 4eva~~^^

站在十字路的交点
该怎么走
我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口
去拥有你的什么
你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友
我却为何不懂挽留
你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
是否太晚 路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边
你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅 我的雨天
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

This song reali touch me alot....just worried that i will be like what the song are sang....

I feel insecure as thing happen twice in this relationship...its seem to b so fragile toward me....i am scared and worried....i cried and cried in these two days and i had think alot...i reali think thru include my life....things tell me that if i gotta lost u in life i think i will not dare and able to take another love cos everything seem to fake and so unreal to me....and more thought~~guys are people who could not keep their true promise,cant long love a galz for life,could not give full trust to galz and could not give security to galz....

I am sure of myself very well...i had hurt thru many time and i knw i could take this situation again...i believe i will turn mad abt it....mayb just leave tis place....

I am thankful that he are dare to stand up and talk to me abt wat he had think thru and thought of that cause situation occurs....i knw its tuff and it will be hard to go on....i knw this relationship will not b that strong...but i believe as we work together i knw we will break it thru....

Jie Ming...trust me love goes thru trial...dun give up and dun b shaken with those though u had....all those are not that important as long we are thr to settle it....trust me we will make it thru...i knw u wan to achieve ur goals...as everyone had it...let me hold ur hand and let us achieve it together...i am hapi with all ur achievement u have done...even thou its not a big and huge wan but still its a great one...i am proud of u darling...i am seriously proud of ur achievement...

Jie Ming,u told ur childhood issue...
let me tell u...i dun care and even bother wat will happen to u in future....as long as i love...i seriously wan to b with u for life and will take gud care of u....even ur childhood issue will occur i will take it up as a challenges...cos i love u...i shud support u den leaving u...i knw wat i wan and nid the most....even u could not give me everything i nid or fulfill every single wishes i have...but i will still thankful cos i got u in life....

i nid u not other else....everything(exclude God) will not important than u.....

let kip a promise btw tis relationship:
1.nvr leave no matter wat...cos we will solve everything single problem together...

so yong jie ming,pls kip ur promises as i will kip my promise to u tat i will not leave no matter wat....

i am serious darling....so let work out sumthing which its betta....
i love u darling...for life...
PS:kip me safe pls...

the most miserable day~~

Today i hav run out of mood and sad....til i hav run out of mind and done sumthing freaking stupid....

Dues to this i hav cause my suffer in an trauma~~~now my hand had alot of scar and alot of blue black.....

i dunno i am insane or i had been a worst situation....i dun wan u to leave me..pls dun leave me...i nid u..u tell me u are not my everything..

let me tell u....u are my everything...i am not lack of love but i just wan to love sum1 and i wan the most...i tell myself not to fall in deeply but i had love u deeply...and i hav into u..

u had slowly gain my trust with u...but now why do u wanna to broke it???why u wanna me to lost the trust on u and lost the love on u??

u started everything and make me clam and comfortable...but why now make me miserable and hurt???

i dun wan tis to happen again...pls.....do not cause tis sitaution to happen again.....

A surprise relationship...

Through out my days in colleges....life had been good...everything seem to be bless by God alot and He had truly awesome for blessing me a bunch of great frenz and supportive frenz....

A semester just passes and now i am in the second semester....tis semester itself its a tuff semester...i hope thing will goes out right and everything can be overcome...i have also started a relationship with my classmate in the month of september..

i was superb surprise with his confession toward me...all this while rumors and gossip been spreading ard btw us and i did not expect tat thing occurs so suddenly...and most surprising it tat he no in love with me due to tat reason but he is in love with for who am i....i truly thank God for him.....

i had been kip praying tat he will get to knw Him....i will cont pray over it as i had share chris to him and i will nvr give up bcos i believe that miracles will happen in the same time i knw God will do sumthing on it.....i pray tat God cont give me strength,power,courage and word of wisdom tat i can cont share the Good News of God to him...i will nvr give up on him and i will share the love of God as i love him now.....

i will kip prayin for tis relationship too.....

i hope greater tis will occur in my life and relationship...and hoping more soul will b safe~~

Prayer~~
Father,i pray for confession of my sin and over thing i have done through out my life....i have not been an obedient child of God...i confess all sin and action i have done into ur mighty hand as ur blood of christ have covered over me.....Thank for dying on the cross for me and everyone and thank you for blessing me so much as well as being with me no matter in wat situation i am in...i pray tat God will continue overseeing me and bless me in my life...i also pray for my bf tat tis soul will be safe and holy spirit will come and anointed him...i also pray for this relationship to b a firm and strong relationship...i pray and uphold every single thing in to ur mighty hand....In Jesus Most precious Name i pray...Amen..

blessed and memorable day...

Hi reader..

It had been a while I had no update myself…Sem 2 yr 2 is here again…I am all way to challenge myself…I know it is reali hard to go thru but I know by all my afford I can make it unique and happen..begining of the week of college I have my Digi Music roadshow. Its was reali tired to do but I try my very hard to work it out…Life getting as normal as I reali thought…few more days I turn 20^th..so worried the day come…still hope tat I can alwiz still in the 10^th century but anyhow I still had to move into 20^th…^^

Well,did not expect anything for my bday itself…tot it will normal day pass…but it reali touch and happy to have so many ppl celebrate my bday…^^

1^st,my hsemate…thks chen lee and simone for taking the initiative to celebrate my bday and thks ex-charision for the love u all gave me on the day even is early but still the best..i am reali touch…nearly cry out..~huhu~

2^nd,thks boss, my love one, Yellow army and Digi…take such a great time spend with me…even I am in the camp but u all still make my day well..^^ thks a lot boss for celebrating my bday….thks for spending a sum of money to make my day well…reali thks a lot boss…thks for bring me to laundry tat day….hehe…I do reali enjoy myself and I proud on meeting DJ FUZZ and listen the song on air…^^ thks boss for spending my day well and thks for the brotherly love u had gave…thks kabi for being with me…even thou ur plan had been ruin but I still thks for being with me..i knw u have are tired but u still thr with me…I reali appreciate such a wonderful day….even thou there is nothing u had brought to celebrate with me but the greatest gift is u..thks for ur time and days…thks dear,I LOVE YOU!!

3^rd,thks for my cell group member for bringin such a surprise for me even my bday had past 2 days away…thks a lot for surprise me the cake…thks a lot…^^

Back to the camp….

The camp was good...i do appreciate the every moment had past…I hope this camp will let everyone learn a lot especially those existing one and also the new comer….thks U2 for being th motivator to everyone who came….last day of the camp, I reali want to cry but I try to kip in my heart….but I am hapi in the same time because dear had come back the one that I met…I am so happy…At the moment ,I hugs him I felt so warm and so comfort…my burden and tired had gone….thks dear for loving me…I LOVE U!!!

Throughout the day are so so tired but with him…the feeling just gone~~~I admit I felt it a little while u are not treating good…but I do apologize being like dat dear…

PS:I hope thing goes well…mayb more improve are added into it…cos I do see love and I do love u my dear!!

wat is tis life mean to b..

I am living a life with full of miserable and trial...

wat shud i do??


how shud i react??


how shud i feel??


i dun hope to live a life like tat but mayb it had plan thru out which i hav to be....i been living in a life with fear and disappointment...

like the feelin of love...
everytime wanted to fully grab whole it i will surely lost it bit part by part...
everytime i step deeper i surely lost control on standin firm...

i dun hope the day come...
i dun hope the time had reach to the stage...

exam life....
everytime i been confident with wat i can but i alwiz been disappointed....
everytime i been stressing so much but the outcome seem to dissatisfied by ppl...

why??
why i alwiz like tat....

i am lost the purpose of life to b a human??
i been throw to a dungeon whr full of fire...
go thru suffer...
bitterness life??

love,
eve_gal

i felt so miserable.....

hi all....time passes so fast another weekend had passes....

i have flu today it make me so uneasy to do my stuff....haiz....

my past i had clear with it and i am glad to have sum1 with me and wum1 i can tok with...i am reali glad with tat....

thks alot dearest one....

today i had stuck in a miserable feelin.....his's frenz like me....huh...i am reali stuck in this situation...sumtime i ask myself...why??why??why???why me??no other???*shud i be greatful of it??*

sumtime i just dunno how to express it...i duno how can i lower my personality....haiz....

PS:i hope now i can tok to sum1 but he is not awake yet i guess...huh...*shud i tell him??*

i reali reali want to foget abt it...

I reali hope i could forget everything in life..i wish i am in coma or lost my mind,memory and etc....i reali felt so difficult with thing around me now..i reali dunno how to bear everything in life cos it seem to b big burden to me...

I reali hope he knw how i feel now and understand how i go on for tis moment...it is reali hard to go thru and it is so fake to b fake to ppl around..try to hide sumthing so so difficult in life..everytime i fall i just could not stand strong anymore i reali nid strenght from HIM so so much...i can bear tis alone...

I alwiz think why is me??but i reali dun wan to ask tis to myself cos i does not had an answer for the question...sumtime i just duno how to handle thing like tis....

Lord,pls bear with me......
i tot i will b happy with wat i hav now...but i am not...

wat can i do much to make thin change...

hey everyone...
Time passing fast and now i am in a new sem again which this is th sem i will fight for it again...it is not easy but i will do it still cos i had faith...

well,thing around me getting every dull and it seem thr is more black and white...i am disappointed in alot of thing and i am sad with thing tat had happen thru out...i try to love a person who main for me but now...i just how to express and dunno how to love the person..all sudden i felt the pain and tired to do thing..i had no motivation in everything in life..i felt fo giving up everything in life...

I knw i shud not like tat but i just colud not find comfort and peace and love tat i nid..i am lost and i am blind..i am breathless too..i felt my life is gone all sudden i lost th power to life on..i felt so difficult to stand and move on and breath...wat shud i reali do...

i kip cryin out to You and i kip sayin cryin to myself i does love him much...my mind is stuck..thing around could not settle i felt reali tuff i reali dunno wat can i do much to work thing out..i felt like cryin but i just could not.i kip in all into myself..i am showin tat i am reali strong which i am not...:(

love,
eve_gal

time passes and thing change...

I dunno wat shud i do more to work thing out...i does love u but thing seem to go not in the right, i dunno are u still thing regarding about this relationship or not..but i reali do hope u had an answer in ur heart and u knw wat u want and hope for so long...I understand how u feel and i knw tat u dun hav the braveness to believe long term relationship..I will wan to let u knw it is not u are not perfect but even me myself are not perfect..Problem come to our relationship is our problem not u alone so pls dun put the blame o urself..I do reali love u so i do reali hope tat u dun put the blame on urself...

U went bck d and everything is over d...i reali do wan to hear sumthing from u..i dun to hide in the dark without knwin anything and i hope all the while i pray and fast with sincere heart God will look thru us and be with us..I knw He had bless tis relationship and him in my daily life which its does a greater gift my life...

dear i want to let u knw how i felt but i just dunno how to find and tok with u...i reali dunno..:'(

The road tat decided...

Well, life are full with disappointment even how hard u strive thru out the outcome u still nid to bear with..

I would say God has his plan thru out...we just nid to take time and look thru everything...Today,everything to me seem plain..yesterday i reali felt 100% pressure whr it seem to drive me mad and drive me to depression...I wake up without any mood and my mom sick which make me dun wan to leave home but i have no choice i nid to settle stuff on hand..Well, i cook porridge for b4 i leave i clear every single thing at home too...Well, i leave with a heavy heart...i step into the car my tears just cant stop falling dwn and i just can recall everything clear wat had happen yesterday...

Tis reali pressure...anyway i had decide whr to go and wat step shud i move..i kip paryin in the bus whn i way bck to kl and i hope thr is ans for everything which hidden all the while...If tis wat God wan me to b i will b humble in everything i nid to do...At the moment i reali miss sum1 dearly...

I wish him all the best in exam tomorrow...i had faith in him which he can do it and i will pray for him..*dear,i miss u and i love u so much...and i knw thr is way out for a reason..no worries i willing to wait and long for u cos i reali do love u....just do ur best k...love u...*

I hope thing will goes well i dun hope this like this happen again...:D LAstly b4 i reali leave tis blog i wan to dedicate a song to my lovely dear darling..u knw who u are...^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6pW_q1PvH0 *clicky*

wat shud i do??

Wat shud i do??wat shud i do??wat shud i do??how??how??

Those question just cant fail comin into my mind...askin me how and wat shud i reali do??
My future...my dream...my hope...my achievement...
Wat reali i can do??

I reali lose in the divider which i reali dunno which road i shud take and how shud i move on in my life and my future..what shud i reali do now??how shud i move on??Is tis i shud go thru in life??but reali why??I knw i does not have the rite to ask abt it cos tis had been plan out in life and it had been set...i just nid to go thru..

Well,at the 1st moment i tot everything settle but it seem nope...cos any decision i make it will lead to a wrong track which i reali dun hope...i reali upset and i had enuff with tears and pressure..but wat can i reali do now...everything seem to b so pack whr i nid to decide by tis week..tis is reali a hard time for me to go thru...:(

I reali hope sum1 can b with me but he seem to b no time for me and i understand how he felt too..i dun blame him even he had does something which reali hurt me at the moment but i shud not pressure him...i forgive and i reali dun blame him for he doin tat cos i reali love him even how many time he goin to hurt me..

At the moment, i felt everything leave me very far and i felt i am so so useless and helpless whr thr is no whr i could belong to.. :( My dad seem to give me alot pressure and i reali dunno how to handle it..i might lead to deepression...well who knw...no one knw... :(

Anyway i can do much and Lord i surrender everything in ur hand and oni u had the plan and the answer for every question i ask in ur name reveal to me and let me knw wat is the right choice i shud choose...Amen..

PS:i love u dear...no matter wat i will still forgive u cos i reali dun wan to lose u in my life..and i will broke the fear...trust me we can do it..:)

love,
eve_gal

how to move on??

Currently i am facing alot of problem that reali give me alot of headache...i dunno wat shud i do and whr shud i go???i kip ask myself shud i stay or live??i reali dunno wat to do...my life is seem to blind in front..i felt so upset after all incident plus i miss sum1 dearly..i reali miss him..

Well i am in the consideration of stayin or move on??i dunno i am really upset and dunno what shud i do...i knw God has a plan for me but still i could not sit and do nothing..Today sermon reali speak to and tell me nvr give up cos each time we fall God will give us hope again..i knw but wat shud i reali do now???i facing multiple problem now..study,life,relationship and etc..i dunno whr to turn to...i nid strenght..

I was prayin and seekin His word but sumtime i reali felt of givin up every single thing in my life but God bless sum1 in me and make me fell i am not alone at tis moment i had him to be with too..if i reali give up how will he help me up??even thou i do not hear any support from him and comfort word from him or he did not show any concern to me but i knw tat he still care and concern everything abt me..i can feel his heart beat whr tellin me:'dear dear dun give up in everything u doin now...' tis reali make me as a motivation...

I felt so uneasy discomfort every time i face tis but still i am satisfied with wat is given to me and had been bless in me..God had bless sum1 in my midst which i reali appreciate it..we arte not together by all sudden by we are together by plan and also love tat pull us together..

Even the continue road how hard to move on..i will still move on i will nvr give every single thing in my life...At this moment i reali hope thr is sum1 bside me to comfort and tell me dun worry..everything will goes fine but i knw it will not hapen..well,he is bz and he felt pressure too i reali dun hope to bring with more problem in him now..as long i knw he alwiz will b i am hapi wilth it..i will understand..as i promise him to b a better ppl tat he hope for...

Well, i decided take the step out which i goin to mmu to require my edu...well i knw after this require i will be more headache and thing tat normally shud happen will all gone...whr i could not meet him even he will goin to kl..but i knw we cant plan bcos thing change..

i really hope everything will not change and i hope God will see me thru...

lastly, i hope ppl will pray for me..
ps: dear i love u and i dun hope on losing u in my life..bcos u been a blessing for me...

thks for being a good bf to me..

Thks for being with me all the while and thks for loving me so much..u been a gud bf in my heart even thou u found u are not a gud bf to me..well,no one is perfect in this world so do i..

Now thr are alot prob occur but i knw this day will over soon....i wan u to knw i am alwiz rite here support and love u all the while...i will nvr leave u no matter wat..even we are not ready for each other now but i will wait till we are ready...

Thru out my life u are a guy which i love so much and are a person who can give me security...i reali do appreciate every moment we spend...even time tat we spend with each other are less but it is precious to me..

Thks for understand me well and thks for everything u had make it in my life u are a great guy my dear..i reali dun hope on losin u in life cos i does reali love u alot...and u r a person who i can spend my life with...i hope u knw...I LOVE U!!

love,
eve_gal

Is life tat miserable??

My life seem to be in a mess for the moment..i try my best to work out something to solve thing up but till now i will not knw the result...i am not sure wat is the outcome of everything but i knw i kip tellin myself not to think so much cos surely thr is sumthing beautiful will be done..

At this moment,i can show how strong i am but real deep inside i am weak..A weak gal which could not stand up strong..thru out my life i had been face disappointment and i been fail alwiz..To share, without Him i will not able to stand up everytime..I dunno how much shud i thks Him but have Him in my life real amaze..Now i might face difficulties again and i real worry i will lose sum1 i love the most..

I been kip prayin and i been fasting every morning..I been seekin His word all the while i will not stop seeking..I knw in my life thr will b alot disappointment and i knw i have to learn to stand strong..Admit! I am trying thru out now but i real pray this time thing will not occurs with disappointment again cos u knw which level i am in..

I had promise him not to pressure the situation so much..i realise SMS between us had been less, i nvr think much just thinkin tat he might bz with his preparation so he might not free to SMS or reply me..Kip myself thing strong is not easy, real not easy cos it seem to be a life taker..but a promise will alwiz be a promise and i say before to be a better person..

I does miss him much even SMS between us had be less but i still truly still care and concern every single thing tat related to him...To love a person u love , u1st must be happy before u could let the person love..yes, i am do so even how hard i willing to scarifice cos he reali is a person who i can spend my life with...How many wrong i willing to b stupid to forgive as long i can protect this relationship..Being a fool or stupid is fine with me as long i knw i does real love him...

Asking myself is this worth in my life cos i am still young..i will say yes cos he is a person which i dream..and this relationship is with all faith and started..he had bless in my life by Him if without Him this relationship will not occur and he will not been bless in my life...

So i reali hope things will goes smoothly and i will kip praying and ask from His grace been show and His unconditional love tat had spread in me been show in the relationship so this relationship will felt warm and alive...

So Lord, oni u knw me and oni u knw wat my heart...i surrender everything in ur name..

LOve,
eve_gal