站在十字路的交点
该怎么走
我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口
去拥有你的什么
你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友
我却为何不懂挽留
你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
是否太晚 路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边
你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅 我的雨天
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

This song reali touch me alot....just worried that i will be like what the song are sang....

I feel insecure as thing happen twice in this relationship...its seem to b so fragile toward me....i am scared and worried....i cried and cried in these two days and i had think alot...i reali think thru include my life....things tell me that if i gotta lost u in life i think i will not dare and able to take another love cos everything seem to fake and so unreal to me....and more thought~~guys are people who could not keep their true promise,cant long love a galz for life,could not give full trust to galz and could not give security to galz....

I am sure of myself very well...i had hurt thru many time and i knw i could take this situation again...i believe i will turn mad abt it....mayb just leave tis place....

I am thankful that he are dare to stand up and talk to me abt wat he had think thru and thought of that cause situation occurs....i knw its tuff and it will be hard to go on....i knw this relationship will not b that strong...but i believe as we work together i knw we will break it thru....

Jie Ming...trust me love goes thru trial...dun give up and dun b shaken with those though u had....all those are not that important as long we are thr to settle it....trust me we will make it thru...i knw u wan to achieve ur goals...as everyone had it...let me hold ur hand and let us achieve it together...i am hapi with all ur achievement u have done...even thou its not a big and huge wan but still its a great one...i am proud of u darling...i am seriously proud of ur achievement...

Jie Ming,u told ur childhood issue...
let me tell u...i dun care and even bother wat will happen to u in future....as long as i love...i seriously wan to b with u for life and will take gud care of u....even ur childhood issue will occur i will take it up as a challenges...cos i love u...i shud support u den leaving u...i knw wat i wan and nid the most....even u could not give me everything i nid or fulfill every single wishes i have...but i will still thankful cos i got u in life....

i nid u not other else....everything(exclude God) will not important than u.....

let kip a promise btw tis relationship:
1.nvr leave no matter wat...cos we will solve everything single problem together...

so yong jie ming,pls kip ur promises as i will kip my promise to u tat i will not leave no matter wat....

i am serious darling....so let work out sumthing which its betta....
i love u darling...for life...
PS:kip me safe pls...

the most miserable day~~

Today i hav run out of mood and sad....til i hav run out of mind and done sumthing freaking stupid....

Dues to this i hav cause my suffer in an trauma~~~now my hand had alot of scar and alot of blue black.....

i dunno i am insane or i had been a worst situation....i dun wan u to leave me..pls dun leave me...i nid u..u tell me u are not my everything..

let me tell u....u are my everything...i am not lack of love but i just wan to love sum1 and i wan the most...i tell myself not to fall in deeply but i had love u deeply...and i hav into u..

u had slowly gain my trust with u...but now why do u wanna to broke it???why u wanna me to lost the trust on u and lost the love on u??

u started everything and make me clam and comfortable...but why now make me miserable and hurt???

i dun wan tis to happen again...pls.....do not cause tis sitaution to happen again.....

thank you~~

I dreamed I went to heaven And you were there with me; We walked upon the streets of gold Beside the crystal sea. We heard the angels singing Then someone called your name. We turned and saw a young man running And he was smiling as he came. And he said, "Friend you may not know me now." And then he said, "But wait, You used to teach my Sunday School When I was only eight. And every week you would say a prayer Before the class would start. And one day when you said that prayer, I asked Jesus in my heart." Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. Then another man stood before you And said, "Remember the time A missionary came to your church And his pictures made you cry. You didn't have much money, But you gave it anyway. Jesus took the gift you gave And that's why I'm here today." Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. One by one they came Far as the eye could see. Each life somehow touched By your generosity. Little things that you had done, Sacrifices made, Unnoticed on the earth In heaven, now proclaimed. And I know up in heaven You're not supposed to cry But I am almost sure There were tears in your eyes. As Jesus took your hand And you stood before the Lord. He said, "My child, look around you. Great is your reward." Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. This its a great song that i shud share to everyone here....Bcos of the great Him we had changed....we shud appreciated every single in life that He had gave us...and He had been alwiz be my awesome God....thank you for everything and thank you for changing my life....

A surprise relationship...

Through out my days in colleges....life had been good...everything seem to be bless by God alot and He had truly awesome for blessing me a bunch of great frenz and supportive frenz....

A semester just passes and now i am in the second semester....tis semester itself its a tuff semester...i hope thing will goes out right and everything can be overcome...i have also started a relationship with my classmate in the month of september..

i was superb surprise with his confession toward me...all this while rumors and gossip been spreading ard btw us and i did not expect tat thing occurs so suddenly...and most surprising it tat he no in love with me due to tat reason but he is in love with for who am i....i truly thank God for him.....

i had been kip praying tat he will get to knw Him....i will cont pray over it as i had share chris to him and i will nvr give up bcos i believe that miracles will happen in the same time i knw God will do sumthing on it.....i pray tat God cont give me strength,power,courage and word of wisdom tat i can cont share the Good News of God to him...i will nvr give up on him and i will share the love of God as i love him now.....

i will kip prayin for tis relationship too.....

i hope greater tis will occur in my life and relationship...and hoping more soul will b safe~~

Prayer~~
Father,i pray for confession of my sin and over thing i have done through out my life....i have not been an obedient child of God...i confess all sin and action i have done into ur mighty hand as ur blood of christ have covered over me.....Thank for dying on the cross for me and everyone and thank you for blessing me so much as well as being with me no matter in wat situation i am in...i pray tat God will continue overseeing me and bless me in my life...i also pray for my bf tat tis soul will be safe and holy spirit will come and anointed him...i also pray for this relationship to b a firm and strong relationship...i pray and uphold every single thing in to ur mighty hand....In Jesus Most precious Name i pray...Amen..

new beginning of everything in life~~

It had been a long long time i did not updates tis blog itself due to the buzz-ness im facing.... Anyway,its great to b bck here writing all my thought,feeling,gratitude,emotionalism,fact and so on....

Through the tuff one year...i hav learn to be even more independent by myself...After the last semester of diploma, i am being alone on doing my thing but i truly thankful cos i have God and Chen Lee(my close frenz) to be with me when i am down,be my guide when i am lost in certain situation and encourage me in everything... *thank you Chen Lee*

After Diploma, i have to learn to be stronger in everything that i do cos i am no longer have frenz like Chen Lee to be with....i have to learn to face and stand strong in thing that happen.....Thank God that i have been and truly know how to stand strong....

In Adv Dip 1 semester..It had been a tuff situation that i am going through and i personally devote myself on concentrating in study...i have forgive and forget my past....Remember 1st day of class i learn to be extra hardworking then before...Think even more....I thought i will be lonely and sad cos i have no more frenz with me that its close....but i truly thank God for a bunch of frenz that had been so supportive to me...Yong Jie Ming had been my nice frenz that i have mix with, secondly will be wei xiang.... after those day...my frenz circulation had increase even more like mey see,phei yee,mun chun and so on.....it had been great....being a student in adv dip its not a joke on playing ard like plyground....

After the 1st semester i have learn alot and i truly thank God for my great result....even its not the perfect 10 and awesome result but its still a great result i nvr get....and i also wanna thanks Yong Jie Ming for being a great supportive,great frenz,great partner,great study member and thks for the love and extra care to me....

Now i am in the 2nd semester..i hope thing will goes in its way and i hope thing will goes their way...i pray and hope that i will able to cope my this semester subject which is AAP,PM,Taxation,and also CF...^^

reveal the true time...

It had been a long time i have left this space for a moment of silent....studyin and life cumin up and starting with a great chapter...

let me update abt the 7 station cross that held in SIBKL....it is awesome session i will ever had, whr u go thru wat God reali go thru in his journey of life...every station does bring a certain meaning to everyone...as i start the journey in 7 station coss its had been not easy fo me...i start with prayer where i reali do nid God strength and power to walk on tis 7 path....start with waashin ur frenz leg...at tis station the atmoshpera reali puzzle me...i pause a while of thinkin and name come in for those had done toward me tat i been forgiving them....i kneel dwn and pray for that person and started to cry out....

after that i start to move on to the next station whr is the last supper held....it reali refelct me alot and make think twice in this station.....proceed to the gathsamene whr u hear Lord's prayer for u.....its reali awesome at this moment...i do feel warm and comfort and the touch of our Lord....at this place i prayer to Lord abt everything in my life and i pray for ppl who had sin against Him....after this station....the atmosphere getting deeper whr i feel guilt and pain whr seeing judas betary him and i put myself in the position i dun hav the courage to pick the sword itself and i confess those had not be done and i felt sorry as he had fill my cup of love toward me....next whr trail start to fight within the momenof thinkin and start to reflect even more....

comtinue this station i feel guilt for wat i had done...i feel sorry for followin the crowd and for not believin myself......i felt reali guilt and as i took up the brush to pain a dot on my hand i feel the pain tat he had bear for me.....in addition,as i proceed i come to cross point on decidin on followin the crowd or followin by bearin the cross on ur shoulder..i took a reali be courage and deciding to follow Him...At the moment itself i feel warm and comfort for i hav done a great decision in my life....As i goin all this i felt scared but in the same time i feel secured....

As i go thru for the few last station its whr reflectin more.....i come to a place of darknest on reflectin his story with mine....i realised Lord had been much more suffer den everyone of us...he had been so faithful and kind for not make us go thru same thing as him....He knw our limit and our stand.....as i go thru it i feel comfort as i nail the sin on the cross i feel rejoice and thankful for wat he had done....

the last station as i come to his table deep in prayer i can feel God present in the place......as i read thru the lovey letter i feel comfort and my tears just roll down....thank Lord for waiting for me no mattter wat....

after all this i went down to search for my cell mate...i starting crying deeply and in the reali moment i feel he is hugging me and tellinis ok my child i am right here with u....dun worried for wat is cumin....i here and alwiz here with u....i feel reali warm and comfort.....

thankyou Lord.....*to be continue*

life are no short,cause thr are still long way to go....

life reali are not tat short as u thought.....

this sem is my last sem...thank you Lord for bring me thru out this life tat i have been...it is not easy to go thru but u had been faithful to me....*hope my cumin exam result will b gud**kip my finger cross*

thing had been come and go this whole years...i had finnaly let go every single thing tat been a barrier in my life....it is not easy to go thru but thank God i had come out for it.....realise those change i had been again....
---->been closer with cell group member<3
---->gettin closer with walk with God<3
---->getting more lovin with family<3
---->getting more strict in my own personal life
---->been stronger and more frim in those thing that might hurt me
---->willing to accept failure and trial

i am startin to learn alot in life.....i reali appreciate the time and tis time reali realised tat i can b mature as nvr thought of it....so nice and i feel cool...

this sem is short sem within 7 week i will finish everything...just hopin everything will b smooth...i been choose to b a cls representative this sem...well,at 1st reali though it a burden but i will just took up this responsible..i knw God will guide me thru....so now in the position of cls representative,Digi CA(mayb quitin) and soon a worker for vincent...XD

been hapi thru out my life now....alot of joy and fun havin together ard especially with my cell...yesterday celebrated alvin kor kor bday..heheh...surprise was gud to b done..

1st time make fish steak but thks God it taste good...heheh...mash potato and also salad....hehehe
simple and nice...XD

den again cheese cake.....^^

recall friday had a fun day with my cell member....we went to eat and jln jln and watch movie...we had watch http://asianmediawiki.com/All%27s_Well,_Ends_Well_2010

This movie was alrite but little blur and not reali understand wat they wan and wat is all abt....cos is so messy....but thr are certain thing tat is funny lo....XD (rating:5/10)

lookin forward with those thing is cumin up next....heheh....

cheerz all the way....

evelynz....:P
ps:lookin forward for later chap goh mei dinner...XD