wat shud i do??

Wat shud i do??wat shud i do??wat shud i do??how??how??

Those question just cant fail comin into my mind...askin me how and wat shud i reali do??
My future...my dream...my hope...my achievement...
Wat reali i can do??

I reali lose in the divider which i reali dunno which road i shud take and how shud i move on in my life and my future..what shud i reali do now??how shud i move on??Is tis i shud go thru in life??but reali why??I knw i does not have the rite to ask abt it cos tis had been plan out in life and it had been set...i just nid to go thru..

Well,at the 1st moment i tot everything settle but it seem nope...cos any decision i make it will lead to a wrong track which i reali dun hope...i reali upset and i had enuff with tears and pressure..but wat can i reali do now...everything seem to b so pack whr i nid to decide by tis week..tis is reali a hard time for me to go thru...:(

I reali hope sum1 can b with me but he seem to b no time for me and i understand how he felt too..i dun blame him even he had does something which reali hurt me at the moment but i shud not pressure him...i forgive and i reali dun blame him for he doin tat cos i reali love him even how many time he goin to hurt me..

At the moment, i felt everything leave me very far and i felt i am so so useless and helpless whr thr is no whr i could belong to.. :( My dad seem to give me alot pressure and i reali dunno how to handle it..i might lead to deepression...well who knw...no one knw... :(

Anyway i can do much and Lord i surrender everything in ur hand and oni u had the plan and the answer for every question i ask in ur name reveal to me and let me knw wat is the right choice i shud choose...Amen..

PS:i love u dear...no matter wat i will still forgive u cos i reali dun wan to lose u in my life..and i will broke the fear...trust me we can do it..:)

love,
eve_gal