God's love which the everlasting love..

I blog a song to you all 1st..this song reli do touch me personally i reli let me realize even more wat He wanted to remind us as His children!!

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

thank God for being so so generous to each and everyone on us...

Well, November had ended and to look back the past i ever had in November it is such so painful month i ever go through with full tears and sadness tat impacted my life so much...on the bright sight i can alot of miracles happen and God's love!!well, anyhow time past and December had impacted in tis moment..so i bet u nid to stay tune to see wat will happen tis month through!!well...i have no much hope oni hope everything really goes well and all my dreamz and hope sucess in life....i dun wanna b a loser a ppl around cos i wan to b the outstanding one tat stand out God light in this moment and forever!!Father i knew u hear me and i knw my prayer to you u had heard me and it will b answer by u bcos whoever ask will b given..so i will b still in the present of ou to see miracles and wonders on how u impact my life...i loves u thee!!
times gettin latez i guess i gotta slpif not i will b XX...XD

LOve,
evegal^^

time reckeless!!

It had been a long day i had no blog so today seen i am free and tired so i blog lo..XD...time seem flies so fast and it again reaching to december...past whole week it had made being so so tired...and i just finish one coursework,one presentation and also assignment!!hmm....past few got little emotional but now gettin better in life..well..thing tat happen it will alwiz happen..it can help it cos could not predict at all...and i have learn how to let go something tat i reli wanted but guess wat now it had turn even more better but i could put too much hope in cos worry tat if one day it fail wat will happen den???my coursework was good just did not knw i do correctly or not...hehe..as for presentation was extremely good!!wee...shud b A d...wahaha...hmm...yesterday had practices for x'mas and was ok..;) just kinda worry cos next week is my last practice and i had to be on stage d...huh...wat shall i do??hmm...past few day i had let go thing tat i love so so much and God had multiple even in better way.. well i hope God will continue surprise me and i will keep prayin for this thing i love so much...i reli hope it will happen one day...this is reli my hope and dream...i bet u were guessin wat is abt..hehe..hmm..i will not say for now but whn it come den i will let u all knw ya!!haha..everything seem so so fast and is already sunday and bring along the end of november.....;) well...it is reli a long day through and i had not reli touch anything and week 14 seem to get closer and closer and i will be comin to the end of the sem again...this time reli do pray hard and i must reli do well...wait....not only do well but must score the best result of all...i must do it andi can do it...i nid to win this race no matter wat...have faith ya!!hehe...

Christmas getting near and i got some present for frenz but how abt myself???hmm...well..i dunno wat i reli want but if thr is ppl give me i will willingly acccept it no matter wat even it is a great big hugss from them i also dun mind...wahahaha...XD..i bet i gotta slp d if not tomorrow not cute and adorable liao...haha...hm...well...get latez if i nvr slp will continue crazy d....lol...gud nite!!

Love,
evegal

Days passes and here come another week..felt so tired of everything around but anyhow things still need to move on...i am just back from mlk...i felt very heavy to leave the plc even thou too many thing impact my life till the end point anyhow i still love and miss them..i could not let go easily..my mum once say i am a huggiez bear so everytime i leave nvr miss she will hug me...well..the last time i hug her really felt the terribleness tat impact me..my mum cried so much till nvr let me go i felt so hurt of seein it...i felt so sorry to her..i cried and i really felt so tuff...i love her and every single one at home no matter how they treat me but i still loves them...even most of time i did not sound and i am silent but i still loves them so much...i will felt hurt if one of them get hurt...today i left my house by giving my mum a great big hugzz and today is me felt i dun wanna to let go but i have no choice due to time constraint...i found comfort in her and i do found the loves in her too...i feel so disappointed and i sad...whn i reach bus station i felt the loneliness and i knw i have to b strong...i step in the bus and i seated at the plc i suppose to sit i though bck abt my family...good and bad but they still apart of me...i knew i need them so much i nvr felt this b4 i felt reli tuff..ok come back to this morning as befoe i woke up i dream alot of thing i dreamabt family, i dream abt a person**** and etc..i felt so heavy in me and i pray to God and do my devotional b4 church...church was gud as normal it was... :) and well today i lost my faith in HIm and i knew i was reali wrong so sorry Daddy.. i knw i need to stand frim in everything i do but i just worry i will lost sum1 i love so much i worry i will nvr get to be the person i love again...so sorry DAD for not trust and have faith...well, i will build a stronger wall and i will have more faith in myself..i will nvr let YOu disappointed in me anymore...i knw DAddy love me so do i..
Thing i reli pray hard for:
1 Relationship with God
2 my family
3 my study
4 A true frenz
5 A person tat i dun wanna to lose

Love,
evegal ^^

why cry again.....

Before i start my day and life here is sum picture on AGM day...
so the 1st picture are me in formal...and the another picture is me and my lovely sis(we are both auditor)...
Here come my story abt this few days...well yesterday is Alpha and everything was good except me la i am mood and i felt really hurt...before i reach the venue i was actually gettin better till i was at the venue i just felt reli disappointed and hurt cos i just felt tuff..well..i will not say wat hapen anyway..and i sat out the class and i was listenin to hillsong and took my dinner...all sudden after my dinner the feelin gettin more lonely and alot of though keep comin in and i just dunno wat to say and how to express...and in the classroom look like they had more fun den me alone outside..they were laughter and jokes around..i reli felt gloomy...huh..and whn i listen one desire and in christ alone tht tme i just cried out and i quickly pray to Daddy...i just dunno how and whr to turn so i do my prayer to clam myself dwn..anyway after the pray i was ok la but still had tat feel..i hate being like dat and just dunno how to overcome..well...after the nite i went bck on9 and chat with ppl...well i was reli tired and lose mind...i was chattin with matt and i just dunno wat i tok well just randomly tok lo and i admitted wat happen to him...well..i knw he will felt disapponted in me for being like dat..i really felt so sorry he had told me and remain me not to think and be lidat but i still does it..i felt reli bad and so so sorry to him...i just felt i had to apologize to everyone for i am wrong..i just felt..frenz who read this reli sorry if i had done wrong and i had hurt u all especially hsemate sorry for let thing u all see i am sad and moody..reli sorry but i could say i could not control it whn i am totally dwn...i just felt left out ad i just felt the loneliness...well...big burden is in me anyway...i am tryin to find a way to let it go....anyway thks matt the concernin and advicing again i am sorry tat i had disappointed u...and sorry if i had hurt u,annoy u,made u angry and etc...well..i just fekt sorry...anyhow how i guess i wellbe off for a moment to just survive by myself..well..no one knw wat will happen tomorrow any way...i guess tat all for today i wanna off for meetin liao...anyway i will keep updatin this blog if i can...

Love,
evegal

At last till the end....

i have not blog for 2days....well within this 2 days not so many thing happen but thr is still thing around here and there la...past few week and this week just felt very buzz and felt everything seem so messy...i also felt tat thing around is not right in position...well....i kinda worry abt my studies and those thing tat occur in life... :) well..i tried to study and concentrate recently but it just not done...well..i tried to find sumone frenz tat really i can be with but thr is just no wan..wel...today is AGM and i had done my part as auditor...but i had no completed the account yet..well still in progress... :) anyway, after tonight and today i just felt i am really left out by ppl.. i just felt whn they need me they will be with me and whn they dun need me they will just dump me a side and even dont bother at all..well..i had use to it anyway...i just dunno i felt tat..i dun blame anyone la..i just felt tat i am...mm....well i just how to describe in word..i guess u all well do understand how it felt in urself... by the way i dun wanna this to be issue in my life and a part of it...well.. i will not even bother if u all wanna tok bad abt me...but just kinda sensitive of it nia l...i admit i am sensitive kind of gal i am easily being hurt......thing happen as it happen i could not change or stop wat it wanna to happen right...by the way i kind of disappointed la just felt the sadness of it...why it happen in this way...well..sometime really do felt the loneliness whn see ppl around had a gud and closest frenz tat they can share with...well i do not wan to rely on any1 but i just hope i could be like others....well He will knw and have it own way... :( now basically had a feelin of missing sumthing and just dunno whow to express out...and reli keep prayin it wll not lose it and it will not happen...kinda think alot well human...try to control anyway..just worry sumday t will belong to sum1 sound like so selfish...hehe..but i will noe say i am selfish but just dunno how to face went lose it.. :(

happy day??

Today i woke up everything was really fine..thks God i had a gud nite...hehe...well...i was really happy of it..hehe...lol...so i went to the morning class at 9.30am...hehe...so went i reach dk i was kinda tired la but was ok lo...cos yesterday slept late..hehe..so after class i walk bck tot of goin to check up sum price for phone but end up i dun wanted to den...so i went back home and i cook my lunch for myself and my housemate..hehe...den around 2 me,my housemate and other christian housemate to KLPAC to watch the footstool play...wow...was really nice and cool...haha...lol...:)...after evrything i came back with one of my housemate and we took dinner...so i now at home...well...i am now alone at home...sad... :) but i really thks tat matt was temanin me and sms with me...u deserve a great big hugss...hehe...*hugsssss*...well..i guess tat for tonite ntg special anyway...haha....:)

Love,
Evelyn

life tat inccur up and down

Today it seem so sunny and hot the weather is as same like past few day so as my mood....i wake up i felt lost and i dunno whr is the direction i should move...hmm...well...i felt moody and my eyes seem little bit swollen..haiz...i went class but i was late..so i went to the lecture hall and i went wrong into dk..huh...sad...den i came out of it and my mom call me and i felt lost whn she tokin to me with what she had tok well obviously i did cried and i felt so embarrass so much...hmm..and i went into dk again but now is the right dk...while i am in tthe dk i could not find peace within and i decided to sms to matt and another frenz...huh...i really down tremondously down....hmm..well den i receive their reply and i broke down in crying with my song was playing...well..i did not knw how to tell them and felt sad of it...i just really disappointed...and i told matt abt wat is actually happenin...i tot there is no one around to advice me and etc...hmm...after tokin to matt i felt much ok still stable and i still can move on...hmm...well...after the seasion of tok i ask sum question to the "pro"...well i did get alot of info...while i am walkin back home my mom call me again and she lecture me again and tell me alot of stuff but i still could not stand i and with cryin again...sad...huh..well...thks God thr is no one in house....hmm...den i felt i am so so full whr i could took my lunch at all..huh...well i did took la bcos worried i will be havin gastric so just in case la..and i did not study very well too..hmm...haiz...b4 i went out i tok to alice and she was askin me how am i...well...i shared with her and she had advicing anyway,,,thks alot jie...luvs u..:)...den i went out to my workin plc and reserve number for my frenz b4 proceed to class..well..after little while i whn to class and tutor say she wanna to do exan 1st bcos i one of my class mate wanna go back and rushin for bus...so we had our exam 1st..i took the exam paper and i just dunno how to start everything..hmm...well i look at up prt of the paper and dwn of the paper...and i just do watever i could..haha..lol..den i came back my housemate say wanna go pasar malam wor..so went we they all...huh...guess wat i ate alot....die i am gonna turn fat...sad sad.... :( but i drank two cup of fruit juice was really nice..haha...well one of it are dragon fruit,banana and also mango...well another one is carrot,apple and orange...hehe...nice...lol.den i ate "chao tau fu"....huh..well was ok la but le huh after it very very smelly le...i cant stand it...huh...swt...den i came back around 9 something if i am not wrong la....hehe...well...den at nite was tokin to matt and tell him my problem...:)...so i guess i will had fun in chatting later!!who knws ya!!haha...lol..:)

Love,
Evelyn

well...i wrote this blog is not want pityness from anyone but i just want to shared wat is actually happenin around through out my life tat all..i dun wan anyone felt i am so pity..tat not the really main point..so sorry i need to say it..so so so sorry...DOWN!!

Wat a day had passes??

today i woke up was fine and was pretty good i guess..i slept well and i woke up and done my quite time as usual..today passage was tokin to let go everything tat u have now and understand Him more and b4...well i not really wanna let go everything i just worry i will be lonely and i was now...well,i scared seen yesterday but i felt God will give me something even better den..hmm..well i saw matt was on net so just to check it out he was ok and just wanna put some God's word in him so i send some verses..:)..and i nearly late for class den so i rush to class..well reach class i listen and i felt i am not concentrated at all..so i make myself concentrate and i came back...well i listen to the song still again cos i knw i am totally keep think abt the thing tat in my mind...den as usual i went to work till i met Esther again and i felt someone tokin to me tat i need prayer i need alot of prayer...ya..i decided to let go everything especially i could not commit in Christmas nite...hmm..well i approach her to pray for me as i share out i really felt the afraid and scare.. well i just felt i lose everything i had especially the person i could share the most...why all this need to happen at this time i really dunno why???well she started o tell and share with me and started to sing a song to clam me well i started to cried out again...hmm...well and continue she pray for me and i really dunno how to express it out...but just to keep silnt and keep crying..den few of them say u look happy but y u cry all sudden..well really admit i am keep the sad n me well workin u surely need to treat customer well and must remain the smiling rite...:)...so i did it...well i am totally discourage in me lo....i guess tat all la...well i really felt the left out feelin...hmm..i guess i need to get back to study tomorow got CW summore..i dun wanna fail...well i guess i am off now...get to u all my life tomorrow..hopefully will be a nice one ya!!
Love'
Evelyn

A dramatically sad dayz..

yesterday i woke up everything seem up and down...its just i could not use to it...well i felt myself moody and i just felt i am no not alright..i just felt is not totally me..i am lost...so i decided to bring my bible along to college cos i knew i will need it...so whn i reach to college i sit and listen to lecture till i took my class note i met Esther...she was askin me how am i??i told her i am surviving ad i told wat actually happen yesterday den...and all sudden i felt really really tuff i just cant breath..i dunno wat to do i went back to my sit and i broke down...i am totally off and down..i really dunno wat to do with it...so i took out my bible and read it from a passage taken from psalm...while readin it my tears keep on rolling down just could not control...every time i tot i was ok but i realize i really not...after tat i decided to ask some one for daily bread and i got to borrow it..so i decided to do my quite time with God den...while doin it i started crying again i just could not keep myself control...:( so i start prayin and prayin...after a little while i went in lecture and start listenin to lecture again but i realize i could not concentrate properly...so i listen to song to clam myself but guess wat..i start cryin which really totally worst...i just could not stop everything...i dunno why???huh...sad...so i came back home and den later got alpha and at alpha i share to everyone my testimony...and whn i am back well my frenz was not really ok..i can see tat he is stress up totally stress up with everything i guess..well i felt bad cos i really did not knw how to tel him well but i try to made him happy and etc..i am all those really help..well...matt i believe everything will be ok...i understand how go through i hope i am thr to share ur burden and stress with u....i knw is just a small thing but still willing to give u a hand,shoulder to lean on and rest and also rear to listen..well i knw u will be alright...hope to hear u will be alright soon.. :)well...i felt everything around me seem to be far apart..is this due to i am not followin His command and do not obey Him???hmm..i really worry one day i will totally lost everything include my frenz tat i can share story too...i am worry and now i am off...

The rememberance day..

The day tat i go through is not really a great day...just felt little miserable and messy on my life..i woke twice one is at 5 something and another is at 8...seem through out the day i dun really slept well i dunno why...i felt really tired and i felt worry too...i just cant understand why and look like everything seem so messy...when i woke up i decided to spend my time with God be i prepared my day to college..so i read the bible and the passage is taken john 15:9-17.. in the bible stated the Father had so loved us, so i love u and His command us to love one others as i had loved u... beside the bible did say that i no longer call u servant, because servant does not know his master's business so He called u as a friend.. all after reading this passage i felt really touch and i can double confirm myself that He had love seen i'm born till today no matter wat..His love to me never changes..and i also felt His love presently where He had send someone or more presentable to called as a friend to comfort, concern, care,support,love,trust, and to keep away from loneliness...i really appreciate so much... Thank you Lord for such a wonderful gift tat u had provided...well, sometimes due to this i felt bad cos i had occupied his time and days where he had no time for himself and in others thing too..even thou he told me not to worry but the feeling worry and afraid are still there..where i really does afraid and worry he will felt annoy and bored with me wish i really does not want it to happen...i just worry i will lose such a friend like him... (admit think a lot)well day passes and time passes everyone did not know wat will happen tomorrow but life still had to go on...through this morning passage too i felt does i really had loved someone and shared His love to others too?? well, ii realize tat i did shared it to certain ppl around but i still felt tat is not enough kua... :( at here i will take the opportunity to say sorry to those ppl and my family.. i felt i had not fully shared the greatest love to them... i am pretty down when i write this blog i just felt of crying out but i had to go class soon... well, today i had keep listening to the song "still" by hillsongs.. seen, i still had little time i also would like to wish my secondary friend happy birthday...even thou she had betray me before but i will still forgive and forget wat she had done to me.. Xin hui happy birthday ya, sorry i am not in malacca to celebrate with ...well, wish u had great memorable birthday with the nurse and doctor that u learn from...hehe.. :) study smart ya and all the best in everything u do.. i wish another friend happy birthday to which is song sing.. i hope he will have a blessed birthday today and all the best in wat he does.. May God bless through out his life... :) well i guess i shall end my blog writing it seem getting longer and longer...haha..hope everyone have fun and enjoy ur day!!

Loves,
Evelyn

The footprints that i leave..

Times flies day goes by...I am still the same but the feeling in me had changes..From a cheerful turn to be a sad evelyn but i am striving to search back that cheerful and lovely evelyn... :) Hard time and wonderfully time i had before is just not good to taste..so this blog title is "the footprint i leave" where just want to see how i had been and how much i had grow...well thing that happen impossible will be the same cos there will not be a place for u to turn back again..so u still had to go on anyhow...past few days there is alot of thing happening around and it had made me feel so miserable and difficult..but i will really THANKS GOD for he had provide someone to really comfort me and be with me whenever i face problem...well..He also show me an answer to my question and i did broke down to God but not totally cos i really dunno how to fully let go.well, i shall learn how to let go thing this might made me better.. :) till today i am not 100% recover cos thing happen will be happen and i know i shall keep praying and made the changes in problem that occurs.. well,of course one man can't do all show so i know there is someone will always with me... :) the song "still" by hillsongs really touch me alot and it let me know how to really deal with my problem..every time i heard this song i broke down n cried cos realize when i face difficulty i does not go back to God,then keep in my heart... as for today was really fine i guess just feel very tired and feel worry with thing that had not really done and thing and event that coming up... hopefully everything will goes smoothly.. i know God will watch over everything.. :) hope my family are fine and everything goes well.. :) that all for now i guess...

Loves,
Evelyn