At last till the end....

i have not blog for 2days....well within this 2 days not so many thing happen but thr is still thing around here and there la...past few week and this week just felt very buzz and felt everything seem so messy...i also felt tat thing around is not right in position...well....i kinda worry abt my studies and those thing tat occur in life... :) well..i tried to study and concentrate recently but it just not done...well..i tried to find sumone frenz tat really i can be with but thr is just no wan..wel...today is AGM and i had done my part as auditor...but i had no completed the account yet..well still in progress... :) anyway, after tonight and today i just felt i am really left out by ppl.. i just felt whn they need me they will be with me and whn they dun need me they will just dump me a side and even dont bother at all..well..i had use to it anyway...i just dunno i felt tat..i dun blame anyone la..i just felt tat i am...mm....well i just how to describe in word..i guess u all well do understand how it felt in urself... by the way i dun wanna this to be issue in my life and a part of it...well.. i will not even bother if u all wanna tok bad abt me...but just kinda sensitive of it nia l...i admit i am sensitive kind of gal i am easily being hurt......thing happen as it happen i could not change or stop wat it wanna to happen right...by the way i kind of disappointed la just felt the sadness of it...why it happen in this way...well..sometime really do felt the loneliness whn see ppl around had a gud and closest frenz tat they can share with...well i do not wan to rely on any1 but i just hope i could be like others....well He will knw and have it own way... :( now basically had a feelin of missing sumthing and just dunno whow to express out...and reli keep prayin it wll not lose it and it will not happen...kinda think alot well human...try to control anyway..just worry sumday t will belong to sum1 sound like so selfish...hehe..but i will noe say i am selfish but just dunno how to face went lose it.. :(