Be thou my vision

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

2. Be Thou my Wisdom, Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee, Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

3. Be Thou my battle-shield, sword for my fight,
Be Thou my dignity, Thou my delight.
Thou my soul's shelter, Thou my high tower.
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

4. Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

5. High King of heaven, my victory won,
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heav'ns Son!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.

There is alwiz up and down in life we have to go thru but God its faithful where He will not leave u alone....At time i reali feel i am far away from God's distance and suddenly i feel i am lost...Time getting closer each and everyday~~~and what have i done in my life and what i have done for our Saviour??

This song reali touch me and wake me up....make me feel warm in His embrace....

Father,at time in life i know i have do wrong....i alwiz expect so many thing in my expectation but not Urs....I am sorry and i confession every single thing into Ur mighty Hand...U are gracious to me Father....I nid u in life more than everything around tis earthly place....Father, i also wan to surrender sum1 into ur mighty hand..I pray for u kind guidance to show the right path....anointed this person with Ur holy sprit and let this person knw how important and precious to have U in life...i continue pray and ask in thy name Father.....In Jesus Most precious name i pray...Amen...

the blossom day~~~~~

I am glad and hapi as i can go back home liao.....YEAH~~~but on other hand i going to miss sum1 alot....^^

All this day i been bz-ing on assignment and coursework that coming up....after all i feel a little bit relax till today but i gotta get to worried about my result lu.....

Result is cumin out soon kinda worried for PM now as the result expected by out lecture its below then the expectation....herm~~~wondering how much will my CW be????

SO fast time passes and we are in week 9 liao...T.T i still got 2 CW test and 1 assignment to complete the whole sem b4 goin to final....haih...

Beside that, i kinda worried about my internship job too...my daddy say that EY company had full employment liao....T.T sob sob~~~how wor???till today i am still waiting for 3 more company to reply me...herm~~~~

Should i start send out my other 3 application????shud i????herm...What a tuff decision i had in mind.....@.@

PS:i am so worried and i am praying hard that my prayer will be answer~~~Father,sorry for what i have done in my life and i might be a disobedient child to u...but i ask for repentant and forgiveness in UR name as well as i nid ur guidance to live a life like u O Lord....pls be with me and purify me with Ur blood...In Jesus Name i pray, AMen~~~

congratulation darling~~~

So fast its a friday again and another week gone just lidat.....currently its week 8 and time reali passing very fast cos week 9 its coming....last assignment dateline soon...oh no~~~~i did not even know how to start write tis assignment...i need guidance from God....Daddy...pls help me...:D

Thru out tis days,i feeling bad and would wanted to apologize to Daddy so much....sori for not being an obedient child...and i knw tat i shud not blame thing and push away my guiltiness to make myself betta off..Hence, a big apologize to You Daddy...forgive me as i change myself each day to be like You...=D

I also wan to say thank you Daddy for being such a great provider...i am super happy as i been told by my darling that he got his internship job...i am so thankful and praise the Lord that he had took away my worried...^^

darling also tell me tat he is scared and worried tat he could not cope in his internship...hmm...well,darling dun worried abt internship...i knw u can do it well cos u have the potential to be outstanding...jia you ya darling....*hugs*

PS:once again darling,congratz for getting your internship job and i am so proud of u...keep it up darling and make sure u do well in ur internship...dear dear love u and will alwiz support darling no matter wat happen...*hugs* ^^

The greatest love

Today, wake up...my tummy ache...T.T i feel so so sick but i still nid to drag myself to clean up the house and study my test...i kinda worried abt my test but i think and believe i can make it thru....^^

Even i am in that condition but i feel great cos i recall wat darling told me yesterday that its so lovely to me....i am glad that u feel han fuk not oni bcos u have u lovely family but to have me too....=) thank you darling for putting me in ur heart...*hehe* Thank you darling for loving me from the bottom of my heart....i feel so warm cos u have love me so much...*hugs*

I also feel warm today cos darling take care and concern abt me even i have tummy ache....thank you darling for tell me wat to do whn i am tummy ache and take care of me so much...I love u Darling.....^^

Anyway,wish we all have a great blessed test tomorrow and hope that we all do well in it....^^
Darling...jia you jia you in exam ya....love u much much.....*hugs*

PS:i am missing u...^^

hapi hapi day~~

verse 1
Everytime I leave to head out on the road
I wanna take you with me to save me from the cold
No matter where I go wrong
you'll be there to turn it into right
I will love you every moment of my life

When I'm on an airplane, flyin' cross the sky
I know you're on a trainride, stations passin' by
No matter what the signs say
However in my mind you are by my side
I will love you every moment of my life

Bridge:
everyone misses something
And I know time changes everything
All the love that you have to give
you should give just as lost as you're holding that someone

Verse 2:
I'd travel cross the great lakes to get to where you are
and even if forever wouldn't be too far
so baby when you asked me
to be the leading lady by your side
I promised to love you every moment of my life

I am so hapi yesterday....my darling sing song to me and suddenly felt that he actually do have talent and sounded like aka JJ Lin....LOL

I feel so touch...cos this its the 1st time he sing to me...lol...i will waiting for the one day arrived for him to ply piano to me....=)
I truly feel so thankful to have him...cos he being with me whn i am lonely and alone...even its late and might been questioned by his family he also willing to stay bck with me...T.T (suddenly feel i am so bad) hehe....in the car we were discussing abt food and food.. he told me tat his hse area thr got alot of nice food....but hor nvr bring me go thr eat de...lol...but after that he promised me tat he will bring me go eat thr...=) he also promise me tat he will bring me go 'little genting' aka lookout point...hehehe i told him tat i wan to go to bkt tinggi too...and he also promised jor...lol...*sweet* but sem break la...hahahha *sori darling, for havin me so demanding* XD

Yesterday, we whn out makan dinner together...feel so great~~we whn to a restaurant to makan cos i told him i miss home and i hope to eat sumthing tat got home feel..i also told him tat i wan to eat fish so much...lol so we whn to the restaurant and eat fish plus vege....heheh

At the moment of eating i feel so touch and sweet...i feel i being pamper by him so much...^^

Thanks darling...I will appreciate every moment of u & i will love u every moment of my life....

thanks for ur love darling~~

Thank you darling for loving me thru out this 2 month and 9 days...even within thru out this period we did go thru tuff time tat seriously worst but thank you for being sensible and understandable on dealing up the problem....

Once again~~thank you darling for being with me alwiz even it is good or bad...i am touch tat u have been alwiz support me and being with me...u reali have been a great bf...

Thank you for letting me feel the sense of security once again...Thanks for no letting me down again...

Below are a little poem for u darling~~

All my life
I’ve been in the rain
Till you came and brought me sunshine
You turned my lonely nights into happy days
And I found love in your little loving ways.

Life has never been that easy
But you were there, behind me all the way
Somehow you always find a way to make me smile
And everything just seems to turned out right.

Thank you for the good times
Thank you for those memories
Thank you for coming into my life
And thank you so much for loving me.

You changed my life the day we met
I never felt your love was needed
You always believe in the things I say and do;
And I don’t know how I would have made it without you.

just one last dance~~

Just one last dance....oh baby...just one last dance

We meet in the night in the Spanish café
I look in your eyes just don't know what to say
It feels like I'm drowning in salty water
A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise
tomorrow will come an it's time to realize
our love has finished forever

how I wish to come with you (wish to come with you)
how I wish we make it through

Chorus:
Just one last dance
before we say goodbye
when we sway and turn round and round and round
it's like the first time
Just one more chance
hold me tight and keep me warm
cause the night is getting cold
and I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar
I'll never forget how romantic they are
but I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one I love

There's no way to come with you
it's the only thing to do

Chorus 3x (until fade)

Just one last dance, just one more chance, just one last dance

Another song that sounded meaningful...i am not sure the true meaning but i will find it out the song true meaning after i watch the movie "one last dance"..i believe it will a touch and loving movie....

I believe in everything in life that its given....i believe in my own relationship whr i will continue to have faith and trust to work tis out....i knw its will not be easy as me and my boyfriend will go thru a tuff situation in life....even its hard to go thru i will still stay with him to go thru tis situation....no matter wat may come in our relationship but i believe if we are firm and we solve it together everything will goes well....

To have a prefect relationship its not easy cos before it turn perfect we have to goes thru alot of trial in life....for now we wan to archive our sucess in study and life as well as in out career....we wan to live in a certain situation...i believe me and my boyfriend will work hard for this....

Once again i wan to tell my darling, jie ming...tat no matter wat i appreciate and thank you for loving me and being with me no matter in wat situation....thank you for being a great boyfriend...thank for teaching me and thanks for guiding me....i will never give up myself as well as u too....thank darling for being with me...thank darling....^^

Lastly,i love u my darling...forever and ever....love u~~~

2 month annivesary darling~~

Our anniversary means a lot,
Much more than any another day;
I celebrate my love for you,
And cherish you in every way.Through passing time, our love still grows,
A caring relationship to explore;
Our life together gets better and better,
And I keep on loving you more and more.

Thanks for being with me all this while and loving me no matter wat happen...even we reali go thru tuff time but i believe tis reali test our love...you been a great boyfriend toward me..even tis relationship its not a 100% perfect relationship but it had ply a great role between us...

Each day grow~~i will continue and kip on loving u~~being with u~~in every single situation~~even thou thr its more down den up or more up den down...i will still with u n loving u~~i will support u in everything u going to do and achieve...

Thanks darling for bearing with me and staying with me...I love u,Yong Jie Ming 4eva~~^^

站在十字路的交点
该怎么走
我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口
去拥有你的什么
你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友
我却为何不懂挽留
你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
是否太晚 路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边
你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅 我的雨天
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

This song reali touch me alot....just worried that i will be like what the song are sang....

I feel insecure as thing happen twice in this relationship...its seem to b so fragile toward me....i am scared and worried....i cried and cried in these two days and i had think alot...i reali think thru include my life....things tell me that if i gotta lost u in life i think i will not dare and able to take another love cos everything seem to fake and so unreal to me....and more thought~~guys are people who could not keep their true promise,cant long love a galz for life,could not give full trust to galz and could not give security to galz....

I am sure of myself very well...i had hurt thru many time and i knw i could take this situation again...i believe i will turn mad abt it....mayb just leave tis place....

I am thankful that he are dare to stand up and talk to me abt wat he had think thru and thought of that cause situation occurs....i knw its tuff and it will be hard to go on....i knw this relationship will not b that strong...but i believe as we work together i knw we will break it thru....

Jie Ming...trust me love goes thru trial...dun give up and dun b shaken with those though u had....all those are not that important as long we are thr to settle it....trust me we will make it thru...i knw u wan to achieve ur goals...as everyone had it...let me hold ur hand and let us achieve it together...i am hapi with all ur achievement u have done...even thou its not a big and huge wan but still its a great one...i am proud of u darling...i am seriously proud of ur achievement...

Jie Ming,u told ur childhood issue...
let me tell u...i dun care and even bother wat will happen to u in future....as long as i love...i seriously wan to b with u for life and will take gud care of u....even ur childhood issue will occur i will take it up as a challenges...cos i love u...i shud support u den leaving u...i knw wat i wan and nid the most....even u could not give me everything i nid or fulfill every single wishes i have...but i will still thankful cos i got u in life....

i nid u not other else....everything(exclude God) will not important than u.....

let kip a promise btw tis relationship:
1.nvr leave no matter wat...cos we will solve everything single problem together...

so yong jie ming,pls kip ur promises as i will kip my promise to u tat i will not leave no matter wat....

i am serious darling....so let work out sumthing which its betta....
i love u darling...for life...
PS:kip me safe pls...

the most miserable day~~

Today i hav run out of mood and sad....til i hav run out of mind and done sumthing freaking stupid....

Dues to this i hav cause my suffer in an trauma~~~now my hand had alot of scar and alot of blue black.....

i dunno i am insane or i had been a worst situation....i dun wan u to leave me..pls dun leave me...i nid u..u tell me u are not my everything..

let me tell u....u are my everything...i am not lack of love but i just wan to love sum1 and i wan the most...i tell myself not to fall in deeply but i had love u deeply...and i hav into u..

u had slowly gain my trust with u...but now why do u wanna to broke it???why u wanna me to lost the trust on u and lost the love on u??

u started everything and make me clam and comfortable...but why now make me miserable and hurt???

i dun wan tis to happen again...pls.....do not cause tis sitaution to happen again.....

thank you~~

I dreamed I went to heaven And you were there with me; We walked upon the streets of gold Beside the crystal sea. We heard the angels singing Then someone called your name. We turned and saw a young man running And he was smiling as he came. And he said, "Friend you may not know me now." And then he said, "But wait, You used to teach my Sunday School When I was only eight. And every week you would say a prayer Before the class would start. And one day when you said that prayer, I asked Jesus in my heart." Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. Then another man stood before you And said, "Remember the time A missionary came to your church And his pictures made you cry. You didn't have much money, But you gave it anyway. Jesus took the gift you gave And that's why I'm here today." Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. One by one they came Far as the eye could see. Each life somehow touched By your generosity. Little things that you had done, Sacrifices made, Unnoticed on the earth In heaven, now proclaimed. And I know up in heaven You're not supposed to cry But I am almost sure There were tears in your eyes. As Jesus took your hand And you stood before the Lord. He said, "My child, look around you. Great is your reward." Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am a life that was changed. Thank you for giving to the Lord. I am so glad you gave. This its a great song that i shud share to everyone here....Bcos of the great Him we had changed....we shud appreciated every single in life that He had gave us...and He had been alwiz be my awesome God....thank you for everything and thank you for changing my life....

A surprise relationship...

Through out my days in colleges....life had been good...everything seem to be bless by God alot and He had truly awesome for blessing me a bunch of great frenz and supportive frenz....

A semester just passes and now i am in the second semester....tis semester itself its a tuff semester...i hope thing will goes out right and everything can be overcome...i have also started a relationship with my classmate in the month of september..

i was superb surprise with his confession toward me...all this while rumors and gossip been spreading ard btw us and i did not expect tat thing occurs so suddenly...and most surprising it tat he no in love with me due to tat reason but he is in love with for who am i....i truly thank God for him.....

i had been kip praying tat he will get to knw Him....i will cont pray over it as i had share chris to him and i will nvr give up bcos i believe that miracles will happen in the same time i knw God will do sumthing on it.....i pray tat God cont give me strength,power,courage and word of wisdom tat i can cont share the Good News of God to him...i will nvr give up on him and i will share the love of God as i love him now.....

i will kip prayin for tis relationship too.....

i hope greater tis will occur in my life and relationship...and hoping more soul will b safe~~

Prayer~~
Father,i pray for confession of my sin and over thing i have done through out my life....i have not been an obedient child of God...i confess all sin and action i have done into ur mighty hand as ur blood of christ have covered over me.....Thank for dying on the cross for me and everyone and thank you for blessing me so much as well as being with me no matter in wat situation i am in...i pray tat God will continue overseeing me and bless me in my life...i also pray for my bf tat tis soul will be safe and holy spirit will come and anointed him...i also pray for this relationship to b a firm and strong relationship...i pray and uphold every single thing in to ur mighty hand....In Jesus Most precious Name i pray...Amen..

new beginning of everything in life~~

It had been a long long time i did not updates tis blog itself due to the buzz-ness im facing.... Anyway,its great to b bck here writing all my thought,feeling,gratitude,emotionalism,fact and so on....

Through the tuff one year...i hav learn to be even more independent by myself...After the last semester of diploma, i am being alone on doing my thing but i truly thankful cos i have God and Chen Lee(my close frenz) to be with me when i am down,be my guide when i am lost in certain situation and encourage me in everything... *thank you Chen Lee*

After Diploma, i have to learn to be stronger in everything that i do cos i am no longer have frenz like Chen Lee to be with....i have to learn to face and stand strong in thing that happen.....Thank God that i have been and truly know how to stand strong....

In Adv Dip 1 semester..It had been a tuff situation that i am going through and i personally devote myself on concentrating in study...i have forgive and forget my past....Remember 1st day of class i learn to be extra hardworking then before...Think even more....I thought i will be lonely and sad cos i have no more frenz with me that its close....but i truly thank God for a bunch of frenz that had been so supportive to me...Yong Jie Ming had been my nice frenz that i have mix with, secondly will be wei xiang.... after those day...my frenz circulation had increase even more like mey see,phei yee,mun chun and so on.....it had been great....being a student in adv dip its not a joke on playing ard like plyground....

After the 1st semester i have learn alot and i truly thank God for my great result....even its not the perfect 10 and awesome result but its still a great result i nvr get....and i also wanna thanks Yong Jie Ming for being a great supportive,great frenz,great partner,great study member and thks for the love and extra care to me....

Now i am in the 2nd semester..i hope thing will goes in its way and i hope thing will goes their way...i pray and hope that i will able to cope my this semester subject which is AAP,PM,Taxation,and also CF...^^

reveal the true time...

It had been a long time i have left this space for a moment of silent....studyin and life cumin up and starting with a great chapter...

let me update abt the 7 station cross that held in SIBKL....it is awesome session i will ever had, whr u go thru wat God reali go thru in his journey of life...every station does bring a certain meaning to everyone...as i start the journey in 7 station coss its had been not easy fo me...i start with prayer where i reali do nid God strength and power to walk on tis 7 path....start with waashin ur frenz leg...at tis station the atmoshpera reali puzzle me...i pause a while of thinkin and name come in for those had done toward me tat i been forgiving them....i kneel dwn and pray for that person and started to cry out....

after that i start to move on to the next station whr is the last supper held....it reali refelct me alot and make think twice in this station.....proceed to the gathsamene whr u hear Lord's prayer for u.....its reali awesome at this moment...i do feel warm and comfort and the touch of our Lord....at this place i prayer to Lord abt everything in my life and i pray for ppl who had sin against Him....after this station....the atmosphere getting deeper whr i feel guilt and pain whr seeing judas betary him and i put myself in the position i dun hav the courage to pick the sword itself and i confess those had not be done and i felt sorry as he had fill my cup of love toward me....next whr trail start to fight within the momenof thinkin and start to reflect even more....

comtinue this station i feel guilt for wat i had done...i feel sorry for followin the crowd and for not believin myself......i felt reali guilt and as i took up the brush to pain a dot on my hand i feel the pain tat he had bear for me.....in addition,as i proceed i come to cross point on decidin on followin the crowd or followin by bearin the cross on ur shoulder..i took a reali be courage and deciding to follow Him...At the moment itself i feel warm and comfort for i hav done a great decision in my life....As i goin all this i felt scared but in the same time i feel secured....

As i go thru for the few last station its whr reflectin more.....i come to a place of darknest on reflectin his story with mine....i realised Lord had been much more suffer den everyone of us...he had been so faithful and kind for not make us go thru same thing as him....He knw our limit and our stand.....as i go thru it i feel comfort as i nail the sin on the cross i feel rejoice and thankful for wat he had done....

the last station as i come to his table deep in prayer i can feel God present in the place......as i read thru the lovey letter i feel comfort and my tears just roll down....thank Lord for waiting for me no mattter wat....

after all this i went down to search for my cell mate...i starting crying deeply and in the reali moment i feel he is hugging me and tellinis ok my child i am right here with u....dun worried for wat is cumin....i here and alwiz here with u....i feel reali warm and comfort.....

thankyou Lord.....*to be continue*

life are no short,cause thr are still long way to go....

life reali are not tat short as u thought.....

this sem is my last sem...thank you Lord for bring me thru out this life tat i have been...it is not easy to go thru but u had been faithful to me....*hope my cumin exam result will b gud**kip my finger cross*

thing had been come and go this whole years...i had finnaly let go every single thing tat been a barrier in my life....it is not easy to go thru but thank God i had come out for it.....realise those change i had been again....
---->been closer with cell group member<3
---->gettin closer with walk with God<3
---->getting more lovin with family<3
---->getting more strict in my own personal life
---->been stronger and more frim in those thing that might hurt me
---->willing to accept failure and trial

i am startin to learn alot in life.....i reali appreciate the time and tis time reali realised tat i can b mature as nvr thought of it....so nice and i feel cool...

this sem is short sem within 7 week i will finish everything...just hopin everything will b smooth...i been choose to b a cls representative this sem...well,at 1st reali though it a burden but i will just took up this responsible..i knw God will guide me thru....so now in the position of cls representative,Digi CA(mayb quitin) and soon a worker for vincent...XD

been hapi thru out my life now....alot of joy and fun havin together ard especially with my cell...yesterday celebrated alvin kor kor bday..heheh...surprise was gud to b done..

1st time make fish steak but thks God it taste good...heheh...mash potato and also salad....hehehe
simple and nice...XD

den again cheese cake.....^^

recall friday had a fun day with my cell member....we went to eat and jln jln and watch movie...we had watch http://asianmediawiki.com/All%27s_Well,_Ends_Well_2010

This movie was alrite but little blur and not reali understand wat they wan and wat is all abt....cos is so messy....but thr are certain thing tat is funny lo....XD (rating:5/10)

lookin forward with those thing is cumin up next....heheh....

cheerz all the way....

evelynz....:P
ps:lookin forward for later chap goh mei dinner...XD

a song in my current heart...

他的镜框留在
ta de jing kuang liu zai
His light passion is left

某一节车厢
mou yi jie che xiang
Behind in one of the train cabinets

地下铁里的风
di xia tie li de feng
The wind blown from the train

比回忆还重
bi hui yi hai zhong
Is stronger than the memory

整座城市一直
zheng zuo cheng shi yi zhi
The entire city is

等着我
deng zhe wo
waiting for me

有一段感情还在漂泊
you yi duan gan qing huan zai piao bo
As there is still a love relationship flowing around

对他唯一遗憾
dui ta wei yi yi han
The only regret towards him

是分手那天
shi fen shou na tian
Is that on the day of the break up

我奔腾的眼泪
wo ben teng de yan lei
My stubborn tears

都停不下来
dou ting bu xia lai
Won’t stop falling

若那一刻重来
ruo na yi ke chong lai
If that moment

我不哭
wo bu ku
I didn’t cry

让他知道我可以很好
rang ta zhi dao wo ke yi hen hao
I can let him know I will be fine

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

轰轰烈烈最疯狂
hong hong lie lie zui feng kuang
So powerful, so strong, the most passionate

我的梦
wo de meng
My dream

狠狠碎过却不会忘
hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang
Was harshly shattered yet I won’t forget

曾为他
ceng wei ta
I have once

相信明天就是未来
xiang xin ming tian jiu shi wei lai
Believed tomorrow is the future with him

情节有多坏
qing jie you duo huai
Despite how bad the situation is,

都不肯醒来
dou bu ken xing lai
I cannot come around

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

跌跌撞撞到绝望
die die zhuang zhuang dao jue wang
Falling and crashing to hopelessness

我的心
wo de xin
My heart

深深伤过却不会忘
shen shen shang guo que bu hui wang
Was deeply hurt yet I won’t forget

我和他
wo he ta
He and I

不再属于这个地方
bu zai shu yu zhe ge di fang
No longer belong to this place

最初的天堂
zui chu de tian tang
The initial paradise

最重的荒唐
zui zhong de huang tang
Has become ridiculous

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
ru guo hai you yi han you zen mo yang ne
If there are still regrets what can I do

伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
shang le tong le dong le jiu neng hao le ma
Been hurt and then learnt does that mean I will be fine again?

曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
ceng jing yi kao bi ci de jian bang
We once leaned on each other’s shoulders

如今各自在人海流浪
ru jin ge zi zai ren hai liu lang
Today, we are individuals separated in the large ocean of people

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

轰轰烈烈最疯狂
hong hong lie lie zui feng kuang
So powerful, so strong, the most passionate

我的梦
wo de meng
My dream

狠狠碎过却不会忘
hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang
Was harshly shattered yet I won’t forget

逃不開 愛越深越互相傷害
tao bu kai ai yue shen yue hu xian shang hai
We cannot escape that he deeper the love, the deeper we hurt each other

越深的依賴 越多的空白
yue shen de yi lai yue duo de kong bai
The deeper we rely on each other, then there are more white blanks

該怎麼去愛
gai zhe mu qu ai
How am I suppose to love?

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

轰轰烈烈最疯狂
hong hong lie lie zui feng kuang
So powerful, so strong, the most passionate

我的梦
wo de meng
My dream

狠狠碎过却不会忘
hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang
Was harshly shattered yet I won’t forget

曾为他
ceng wei ta
I have once

相信明天就是未来
xiang xin ming tian jiu shi wei lai
Believed tomorrow is the future with him

情节有多坏
qing jie you duo huai
Despite how bad the situation is,

都不肯醒来
dou bu ken xing lai
I cannot come around

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

跌跌撞撞到绝望
die die zhuang zhuang dao jue wang
Falling and crashing to hopelessness

我的心
wo de xin
My heart

深深伤过却不会忘
shen shen shang guo que bu hui wang
Was deeply hurt yet I won’t forget

我和他
wo he ta
He and I

不再属于这个地方
bu zai shu yu zhe ge di fang
No longer belong to this place

最初的天堂
zui chu de tian tang
The initial paradise

最重的荒唐
zui zhong de huang tang
Has become ridiculous

如果還有遺憾 是分手那天
ru guo hai you yi han shi feng shou na tian
If there are still regrets, it’s that the day of break up

我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
wo ben teng de yan lei dou ting bu xia lai
My stubborn tears won’t stop falling

若那一刻重來 我不哭
ruo na yi ke zhong lai wo bu ku
If that moment I didn’t cry,

讓他知道我可以很好
ran ta zhi dao wo ke yi hen hao
I can let him know I will be fine

hope to live in the past but impossible....

i reali hope i could live in the past and nvr move forward.....

i miss the day i am with u...how much i care,concern and worried abt u.....but fate let us not stay together....

i will like to say avery big thank you to u for lovin me so much....u such a great person i ever met...

the moment with u....u had gave me a sense of security and comfort to me...u had support me and b with me alwiz too....

tis few day,my mind suddenly recall all the sweet memory u gave me....every min and second is such a sweet memory.....

the way u concern,love,care,worried and think abt me.....is so sweet.....

now,i wish u all the best and may God b wit u and with ur relationship....

i knw u will treat her like how u treat me....*sweet*

till now....

*imissyou*

hope no more nonsence....

argument...
misunderstand...

i had enuff n i knw u too....i tot i could share all my feelin and all kind of issue with u but i guess i am reali wrong...i tot respect and to b true n fact is share every single thing with u....now i guess i am reali wrong.....

all the msg regarding feelin,prob,issues....shud not be send out....i hope to pull bck but is reali too late....i shud not set up the fire and let it blow up....

i was reali hapi tat u do understand me but the understand had turn to pist off,annoy......think bck over and over again....why i had been such a failure.....i guess i reali disappoint u alot....

do hope heard answer from u and not from myself only but at all time i nid to decide for it.....

i reali hope those question n feelin did not share out....i guess now we are as usual we are....

i guess hundred word of apologize could not repair the relationship btw us.....

concern,love and care tat i alwiz say its alwiz true...it will nvr deny it cos i reali do care and concern abt u.....

i knw i shud change all the weakness i hav.....i hope u give me time....to change....
time needed for me to b a betta person....to strong,to use proper expression and to use proper tone....

i decide to leave this for a moment and come back to look to u in a betta personality....
promise no more feelin and question text to b send out....

hope u truly understand kabi.....* i reali nid time and i will nvr leave u*