blessed and memorable day...

Hi reader..

It had been a while I had no update myself…Sem 2 yr 2 is here again…I am all way to challenge myself…I know it is reali hard to go thru but I know by all my afford I can make it unique and happen..begining of the week of college I have my Digi Music roadshow. Its was reali tired to do but I try my very hard to work it out…Life getting as normal as I reali thought…few more days I turn 20^th..so worried the day come…still hope tat I can alwiz still in the 10^th century but anyhow I still had to move into 20^th…^^

Well,did not expect anything for my bday itself…tot it will normal day pass…but it reali touch and happy to have so many ppl celebrate my bday…^^

1^st,my hsemate…thks chen lee and simone for taking the initiative to celebrate my bday and thks ex-charision for the love u all gave me on the day even is early but still the best..i am reali touch…nearly cry out..~huhu~

2^nd,thks boss, my love one, Yellow army and Digi…take such a great time spend with me…even I am in the camp but u all still make my day well..^^ thks a lot boss for celebrating my bday….thks for spending a sum of money to make my day well…reali thks a lot boss…thks for bring me to laundry tat day….hehe…I do reali enjoy myself and I proud on meeting DJ FUZZ and listen the song on air…^^ thks boss for spending my day well and thks for the brotherly love u had gave…thks kabi for being with me…even thou ur plan had been ruin but I still thks for being with me..i knw u have are tired but u still thr with me…I reali appreciate such a wonderful day….even thou there is nothing u had brought to celebrate with me but the greatest gift is u..thks for ur time and days…thks dear,I LOVE YOU!!

3^rd,thks for my cell group member for bringin such a surprise for me even my bday had past 2 days away…thks a lot for surprise me the cake…thks a lot…^^

Back to the camp….

The camp was good...i do appreciate the every moment had past…I hope this camp will let everyone learn a lot especially those existing one and also the new comer….thks U2 for being th motivator to everyone who came….last day of the camp, I reali want to cry but I try to kip in my heart….but I am hapi in the same time because dear had come back the one that I met…I am so happy…At the moment ,I hugs him I felt so warm and so comfort…my burden and tired had gone….thks dear for loving me…I LOVE U!!!

Throughout the day are so so tired but with him…the feeling just gone~~~I admit I felt it a little while u are not treating good…but I do apologize being like dat dear…

PS:I hope thing goes well…mayb more improve are added into it…cos I do see love and I do love u my dear!!

wat is tis life mean to b..

I am living a life with full of miserable and trial...

wat shud i do??


how shud i react??


how shud i feel??


i dun hope to live a life like tat but mayb it had plan thru out which i hav to be....i been living in a life with fear and disappointment...

like the feelin of love...
everytime wanted to fully grab whole it i will surely lost it bit part by part...
everytime i step deeper i surely lost control on standin firm...

i dun hope the day come...
i dun hope the time had reach to the stage...

exam life....
everytime i been confident with wat i can but i alwiz been disappointed....
everytime i been stressing so much but the outcome seem to dissatisfied by ppl...

why??
why i alwiz like tat....

i am lost the purpose of life to b a human??
i been throw to a dungeon whr full of fire...
go thru suffer...
bitterness life??

love,
eve_gal

is this a days

hi everyone...time passes fast a week in digi roadshow and everything seem to be alrite oni....i felt tired and dead after those event....

this few days i felt tired and sad...my hsemate...my frenz around....i am reali sad... :'(

i get fed up with ppl around me except sumone...ppl around seem to over and frustrated..i am reali fed up and annoyed of it...sum time i wonder wat the freakin problem with them...i knw this is rude but i just cant take it...i felt so annoyed reali annoyed...u all seem like a BITCH la.....

this whole i am reali sad and fed up...everything seem to ruin and my life reali felt so miserable..:(

i miss sum1 alot...wan to meet him up so much....

love,

eve_gal

i felt so miserable.....

hi all....time passes so fast another weekend had passes....

i have flu today it make me so uneasy to do my stuff....haiz....

my past i had clear with it and i am glad to have sum1 with me and wum1 i can tok with...i am reali glad with tat....

thks alot dearest one....

today i had stuck in a miserable feelin.....his's frenz like me....huh...i am reali stuck in this situation...sumtime i ask myself...why??why??why???why me??no other???*shud i be greatful of it??*

sumtime i just dunno how to express it...i duno how can i lower my personality....haiz....

PS:i hope now i can tok to sum1 but he is not awake yet i guess...huh...*shud i tell him??*

narrow stress

today chruch sermon was reali great...the sermon reali impacted my life and thought...i felt i being naif in everything i do...i being stupid for wat i am now...i felt tuff everytime i reflect bck..

i knw it over and is past...i could not go bck whr i came from....i nid to move on but how can i strive it thru..i nid alot of STRENGHT and POWER to work tis out...i am reali frustrated of myself for being so so attitude and for being so rely on frenz....i am so stupid and naif....huh....

i am upset,frustrated and fed up with myself...i being so so immature in my past..i cry and cry whn i reflect it..i felt a heavy rock just pressure me and i try to remove but i just could not.....i dunno why and i dunno how to do it so....i ask for help but thr is no one...i am alone and i lost sense of security and sense of direction...

i am totally lost....i try to wake up but i just could not i felt of fallin off the step stone....i am scare to love, to care, to concern, and etc..i just dun wan to do thing and make thing rite...i seem to run away from everything if i reali can....i starting to hate myself again and i knw it not rite....but i dunno....i am totally being process but evil sprit...i try to fight for it....i pray tat God will with me....and i knw HE is thr but i just nid to work thing out....

WHAT CAN I REALI DO???

I AM REFLECTING MYSELF.....

CHEE CHEONG.....

PAUL....

ROBIN.....

STUDIES...

FAMILY AND LIFE.....

I AM LOST NOW....

I DUNNO WHICH DIRECTION.....

bday preparation for sum1...

it had been so long i did not update it...bad bad bad.....

i had shifted from my old place to a new place and there is no internet access...

i am reali so sorry for not kip updating...here i am updatin abt myself and past thing happen...sweet thing in me had ended with a stupid reason he gave me..at time i reali fed up myself i dun felt like think and facing...i felt like slp it thru and hide it thru but i knw it is impossible to do so....

i end with him on my mom bday and i reali upset...thing happen all sudden i knw i nid to get prepared of it but i could not....i tot i am strong but i am sorry i am not....

i live it thru cis God still concern me and frenz are still care for me.... but i knw i will not b my past strong cos i had wen thru alot and this time another time....i am fragile in love..i scared to love,to care and etc..i am reali fragile for now...i dun dare to do anything for now....

i had prepare a bday surprise for kabi...but aprt of it does not sucess...haih..i am sad of it and i reali upset....i could b come a good planner....thru out the planning i felt tuff cos i actually reali lost...in the middle of preparation on thrusday i got little conflict between my hsemate...we does not fight but she just being to comfortable to throw temper on me...i am being too kind and stupid to let it had happen...i realise it getting worst now...i try to run from thing and try to hide but i knw it can last long..i am prayin thru cos i reali dunno wat can i do to clear it all....

i am glad he is hapi n i am try my best to give wat i can....once again hapi bday....

~you are da best kabi...not nid to say thks...but is reali a blessin...i shud say sorry for not doin tat good...~

held??

Here is a song which attract me long time and again i hear it again....

Natalie Grant - Held

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.

Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.

Chorus:
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred know our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

Bridge:
If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

Hope u all will like it yeah!!

i reali reali want to foget abt it...

I reali hope i could forget everything in life..i wish i am in coma or lost my mind,memory and etc....i reali felt so difficult with thing around me now..i reali dunno how to bear everything in life cos it seem to b big burden to me...

I reali hope he knw how i feel now and understand how i go on for tis moment...it is reali hard to go thru and it is so fake to b fake to ppl around..try to hide sumthing so so difficult in life..everytime i fall i just could not stand strong anymore i reali nid strenght from HIM so so much...i can bear tis alone...

I alwiz think why is me??but i reali dun wan to ask tis to myself cos i does not had an answer for the question...sumtime i just duno how to handle thing like tis....

Lord,pls bear with me......
i tot i will b happy with wat i hav now...but i am not...

there will be a day....

This song reali touch me alot..its reali remind me tat thr will someday and somehow we will face the end day which reali soon...everyone nid to face the judgement day and we nid to go thru all the punishment and answer those question tat been ask..

There Will Be A Day lyrics

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that tries to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

(Chorus)
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more
fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel you’re walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

(Chorus)

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will
wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery
this is why this is why I sing

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more
fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more
fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day, he will wipe away the tears,
He will wipe away the tears,
He will wipe away the tears,
There will be a day.

Lord,i am prepare to face u on tat day i wlling to take all my burden and sin tat i had done...I am sorry Lord..

Love,
eve_gal

wat can i do much to make thin change...

hey everyone...
Time passing fast and now i am in a new sem again which this is th sem i will fight for it again...it is not easy but i will do it still cos i had faith...

well,thing around me getting every dull and it seem thr is more black and white...i am disappointed in alot of thing and i am sad with thing tat had happen thru out...i try to love a person who main for me but now...i just how to express and dunno how to love the person..all sudden i felt the pain and tired to do thing..i had no motivation in everything in life..i felt fo giving up everything in life...

I knw i shud not like tat but i just colud not find comfort and peace and love tat i nid..i am lost and i am blind..i am breathless too..i felt my life is gone all sudden i lost th power to life on..i felt so difficult to stand and move on and breath...wat shud i reali do...

i kip cryin out to You and i kip sayin cryin to myself i does love him much...my mind is stuck..thing around could not settle i felt reali tuff i reali dunno wat can i do much to work thing out..i felt like cryin but i just could not.i kip in all into myself..i am showin tat i am reali strong which i am not...:(

love,
eve_gal

time passes and thing change...

I dunno wat shud i do more to work thing out...i does love u but thing seem to go not in the right, i dunno are u still thing regarding about this relationship or not..but i reali do hope u had an answer in ur heart and u knw wat u want and hope for so long...I understand how u feel and i knw tat u dun hav the braveness to believe long term relationship..I will wan to let u knw it is not u are not perfect but even me myself are not perfect..Problem come to our relationship is our problem not u alone so pls dun put the blame o urself..I do reali love u so i do reali hope tat u dun put the blame on urself...

U went bck d and everything is over d...i reali do wan to hear sumthing from u..i dun to hide in the dark without knwin anything and i hope all the while i pray and fast with sincere heart God will look thru us and be with us..I knw He had bless tis relationship and him in my daily life which its does a greater gift my life...

dear i want to let u knw how i felt but i just dunno how to find and tok with u...i reali dunno..:'(

The road tat decided...

Well, life are full with disappointment even how hard u strive thru out the outcome u still nid to bear with..

I would say God has his plan thru out...we just nid to take time and look thru everything...Today,everything to me seem plain..yesterday i reali felt 100% pressure whr it seem to drive me mad and drive me to depression...I wake up without any mood and my mom sick which make me dun wan to leave home but i have no choice i nid to settle stuff on hand..Well, i cook porridge for b4 i leave i clear every single thing at home too...Well, i leave with a heavy heart...i step into the car my tears just cant stop falling dwn and i just can recall everything clear wat had happen yesterday...

Tis reali pressure...anyway i had decide whr to go and wat step shud i move..i kip paryin in the bus whn i way bck to kl and i hope thr is ans for everything which hidden all the while...If tis wat God wan me to b i will b humble in everything i nid to do...At the moment i reali miss sum1 dearly...

I wish him all the best in exam tomorrow...i had faith in him which he can do it and i will pray for him..*dear,i miss u and i love u so much...and i knw thr is way out for a reason..no worries i willing to wait and long for u cos i reali do love u....just do ur best k...love u...*

I hope thing will goes well i dun hope this like this happen again...:D LAstly b4 i reali leave tis blog i wan to dedicate a song to my lovely dear darling..u knw who u are...^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6pW_q1PvH0 *clicky*

wat shud i do??

Wat shud i do??wat shud i do??wat shud i do??how??how??

Those question just cant fail comin into my mind...askin me how and wat shud i reali do??
My future...my dream...my hope...my achievement...
Wat reali i can do??

I reali lose in the divider which i reali dunno which road i shud take and how shud i move on in my life and my future..what shud i reali do now??how shud i move on??Is tis i shud go thru in life??but reali why??I knw i does not have the rite to ask abt it cos tis had been plan out in life and it had been set...i just nid to go thru..

Well,at the 1st moment i tot everything settle but it seem nope...cos any decision i make it will lead to a wrong track which i reali dun hope...i reali upset and i had enuff with tears and pressure..but wat can i reali do now...everything seem to b so pack whr i nid to decide by tis week..tis is reali a hard time for me to go thru...:(

I reali hope sum1 can b with me but he seem to b no time for me and i understand how he felt too..i dun blame him even he had does something which reali hurt me at the moment but i shud not pressure him...i forgive and i reali dun blame him for he doin tat cos i reali love him even how many time he goin to hurt me..

At the moment, i felt everything leave me very far and i felt i am so so useless and helpless whr thr is no whr i could belong to.. :( My dad seem to give me alot pressure and i reali dunno how to handle it..i might lead to deepression...well who knw...no one knw... :(

Anyway i can do much and Lord i surrender everything in ur hand and oni u had the plan and the answer for every question i ask in ur name reveal to me and let me knw wat is the right choice i shud choose...Amen..

PS:i love u dear...no matter wat i will still forgive u cos i reali dun wan to lose u in my life..and i will broke the fear...trust me we can do it..:)

love,
eve_gal

how to move on??

Currently i am facing alot of problem that reali give me alot of headache...i dunno wat shud i do and whr shud i go???i kip ask myself shud i stay or live??i reali dunno wat to do...my life is seem to blind in front..i felt so upset after all incident plus i miss sum1 dearly..i reali miss him..

Well i am in the consideration of stayin or move on??i dunno i am really upset and dunno what shud i do...i knw God has a plan for me but still i could not sit and do nothing..Today sermon reali speak to and tell me nvr give up cos each time we fall God will give us hope again..i knw but wat shud i reali do now???i facing multiple problem now..study,life,relationship and etc..i dunno whr to turn to...i nid strenght..

I was prayin and seekin His word but sumtime i reali felt of givin up every single thing in my life but God bless sum1 in me and make me fell i am not alone at tis moment i had him to be with too..if i reali give up how will he help me up??even thou i do not hear any support from him and comfort word from him or he did not show any concern to me but i knw tat he still care and concern everything abt me..i can feel his heart beat whr tellin me:'dear dear dun give up in everything u doin now...' tis reali make me as a motivation...

I felt so uneasy discomfort every time i face tis but still i am satisfied with wat is given to me and had been bless in me..God had bless sum1 in my midst which i reali appreciate it..we arte not together by all sudden by we are together by plan and also love tat pull us together..

Even the continue road how hard to move on..i will still move on i will nvr give every single thing in my life...At this moment i reali hope thr is sum1 bside me to comfort and tell me dun worry..everything will goes fine but i knw it will not hapen..well,he is bz and he felt pressure too i reali dun hope to bring with more problem in him now..as long i knw he alwiz will b i am hapi wilth it..i will understand..as i promise him to b a better ppl tat he hope for...

Well, i decided take the step out which i goin to mmu to require my edu...well i knw after this require i will be more headache and thing tat normally shud happen will all gone...whr i could not meet him even he will goin to kl..but i knw we cant plan bcos thing change..

i really hope everything will not change and i hope God will see me thru...

lastly, i hope ppl will pray for me..
ps: dear i love u and i dun hope on losing u in my life..bcos u been a blessing for me...

thks for being a good bf to me..

Thks for being with me all the while and thks for loving me so much..u been a gud bf in my heart even thou u found u are not a gud bf to me..well,no one is perfect in this world so do i..

Now thr are alot prob occur but i knw this day will over soon....i wan u to knw i am alwiz rite here support and love u all the while...i will nvr leave u no matter wat..even we are not ready for each other now but i will wait till we are ready...

Thru out my life u are a guy which i love so much and are a person who can give me security...i reali do appreciate every moment we spend...even time tat we spend with each other are less but it is precious to me..

Thks for understand me well and thks for everything u had make it in my life u are a great guy my dear..i reali dun hope on losin u in life cos i does reali love u alot...and u r a person who i can spend my life with...i hope u knw...I LOVE U!!

love,
eve_gal

Is life tat miserable??

My life seem to be in a mess for the moment..i try my best to work out something to solve thing up but till now i will not knw the result...i am not sure wat is the outcome of everything but i knw i kip tellin myself not to think so much cos surely thr is sumthing beautiful will be done..

At this moment,i can show how strong i am but real deep inside i am weak..A weak gal which could not stand up strong..thru out my life i had been face disappointment and i been fail alwiz..To share, without Him i will not able to stand up everytime..I dunno how much shud i thks Him but have Him in my life real amaze..Now i might face difficulties again and i real worry i will lose sum1 i love the most..

I been kip prayin and i been fasting every morning..I been seekin His word all the while i will not stop seeking..I knw in my life thr will b alot disappointment and i knw i have to learn to stand strong..Admit! I am trying thru out now but i real pray this time thing will not occurs with disappointment again cos u knw which level i am in..

I had promise him not to pressure the situation so much..i realise SMS between us had been less, i nvr think much just thinkin tat he might bz with his preparation so he might not free to SMS or reply me..Kip myself thing strong is not easy, real not easy cos it seem to be a life taker..but a promise will alwiz be a promise and i say before to be a better person..

I does miss him much even SMS between us had be less but i still truly still care and concern every single thing tat related to him...To love a person u love , u1st must be happy before u could let the person love..yes, i am do so even how hard i willing to scarifice cos he reali is a person who i can spend my life with...How many wrong i willing to b stupid to forgive as long i can protect this relationship..Being a fool or stupid is fine with me as long i knw i does real love him...

Asking myself is this worth in my life cos i am still young..i will say yes cos he is a person which i dream..and this relationship is with all faith and started..he had bless in my life by Him if without Him this relationship will not occur and he will not been bless in my life...

So i reali hope things will goes smoothly and i will kip praying and ask from His grace been show and His unconditional love tat had spread in me been show in the relationship so this relationship will felt warm and alive...

So Lord, oni u knw me and oni u knw wat my heart...i surrender everything in ur name..

LOve,
eve_gal

I am sorry!! to hubby

I am reali sorry for the word i might hurt u..i just felt i am wrong..thing happen within and i reali wan to solve it...

I am truly disappointed truly to say after hear those thing u say but whenever i cool myself dwn and think..In this relationship i can tell u this i am not perfectly...u kip on say u are the one have problem but i can tel u not u..is both of us cos tis relationship is both of us...i had wrong too even how perfect i am being a gf but i had wrong too...

My heart is tearin away day by day...i did not knw why..i just feel the pain..i promise not to pressure this relationship anymore and i nvr tel u this let us refresh tis relationship and move again..I keepin alot of thing in my heart and i did not tel it out...Now i feel difficult and i dunno wat shud i do...i wanted to tel u but i choose not too cos u havin exam...

I just can say at tis moment i truly love u...i strongly knw tat if i do lose u i will break dwn terriblely and at the moment i reali will lose my consent and feelin in lovein ppl around..I keep tellin myself nothing will happen just believe everything is goin fine...but i knw i keep hidin myself from thing tat it might happen...

Every fresh morning i wake up,my mind just cant stop thinkin alot of thing...but i cant do much just to bear with the pain and my tears roll dwn without my consent..i kip tellin myself u love him and he love u too...why are u still crying??i just could not comfort myself...i did not knw wat had happen to u..u might be bz or u might sumthing on mind...

i can assure one thing in my life i willing to spend my life with u...i can scarifice those alot of thing to just be with u....

i just......


could not bear the pain....

i truly love you!!

study study study!!!!

hi everyone...
how life is getting up??i hope u all enjoy thru the month....:D

i will blog sum of the promises to u all today....:D
1stly,as u all knw my exam is up..so i had been study hard for i...i reali hope this time it will reali make a different between....i dun to b disappointed again....the disappoint at past had been enuff for me.....here are sum pic whr me and my sis(simone) had study in starbuck..*amazed*










well,there are more picture but lazy wanna post up...hehe.....
up to the next blog regardin today!!

The mix and match of pice and puzzle of life..

Hi readers....
It had been another long time on not blogging again...so so sorry...i had been bz with preparation of exam with kinda stress up...but still strive thru alot...

I had been promise post up but i did not fullfill it...so so sorry..i promise i will do so for the up coming post...

Just live update a little and part of puzzle of my life these few days....
There is alot thing happening thru out with my expectation and it seem to a tuff week...but still thks God for everything cos with HIM i reali do not knw whr to draw strength from....

Well,i admit i am in a relationship...i will tel u tat this relationship is not easy...At the 1st moment i am in i felt tat he is just treat me like a part time gf whr whn he nid me he sms me but whn not he will just leave me alone...tell i felt it thou i kip tellin myself he is buzz with stuff and so on...but than i still cant take the fact...i was reali upset whn found out he drinks and i disappoint on not bothering me...i was reali angry yet upset at the same time..At the moment i reali dunno wat to do i just felt the broke dwn and i felt a moment on rushin on this realtionship and i had done wrong decision..

I had been kip prayin for this relationship...even thou he is not a christian but stil he is God creation...whr God love everyone of us in this world no matter wat u are or wat color u are...without failing i kip paryin i knw thr will b a change in everything we done...tat nite itself i tok to him and i felt ok but thing seem to not tat well after tat...well..i start to think alot again...haiz...but thks God he actually prepared a way out for me...whrone of the nite we spend the whole nite on rising issues which happening thru out and we gettin to knw each other even more then b4...well all glory still goes to HIM...without HIM this thing would not happen....

my relationship with him now are more stable than b4...but then i still nid alot of prayer to cover it...cos prayer make different in our life...^^

well,upcomin thr still 3 more paper on hand which i nid to sit comin sat,mon and tues...i reali pray tat God do give me strenght and knowledge on doin well...i reali nid to study cos at the same time my bf coming dwn to kl..so i bet i had not much time on this and tat..so i nid a good time management....i pray hard for it...Lord pls help me yeah!!!

I guess i will stop here for not and get bck to my study now...thks GOd for everything....
PS:kip prayin for me yeah!!thks...

LOve,
eve_gal

The continue...Good 2 Great..

Hi everyone..

As i had promise to do my part but sorry for the delay...so so sorry...

Well,this post wll b last day of camp..but the photo will b little random..

the last day of camp we had learn alot of stuff too even we are reali tired...we saw and learn sumthing which all the while we tot it is impossible to happen but guess wat ntg is impossible..just like ntg is impossible with God..

well..i had success poke thru the potato by a straw by one hit and alot ppl had conquerer

their fear whcih all the while in them...well i was reali amazed so those thing had happen...

well...

Now i will let the photo to do some tokin instead of me..:D

~welcome to digi HQ~

after a satisfied dinner yeah!!

we TARCIAN~~me and my commanders..:D

me and my real real boss~~*kennY*

me and my "boss"*kabilan*

we and nice MR.P ps:get to knw him..he is a nice guy...

my team and Mr.p ps:MR.P like to post around...he is a got model

see at the guy..he was lying dwn on the chair...

b4 it bring up to the chair..

*take 2*

*take 3*

sherlyn and few guys....

my team again with MR.P...:D

melissa and buddy with MR.P..:D

we as one sprit,one yellow,one life!!passion!!

woot...straw went thru the potato..:D

lastly...me and robin..:D

After depart from HQ i started to miss the camp and started of think the camp can b extend i will stay....it s reali nice and lovely camp...

Well...

I shall end here...it is too late d..time wont not allow me stay any longer...see ya...

miss u all..

Love,

eve_gal

a lovely hapi day had turn into a night mare..

Hi everyone...
Had promise u all to blog but i did not keep my promise...i am so sorry..was bz with my project and my final is comin...i was worry..

well, i blog today cos i dunno whr to express out my feelin..i am totally lost again...why i alwiz face tis type of situation..it is my expectation too high??i reali dunno...admit i fall for a person tat is love me...the way he express himself reali felt differently...he sms me everyday so do i...admit i am in love....

i havin high fever which is 39 celcius..
shock off my life.....
but i will recover soon...

yesterday.....
he was bz with assignment....i dunno why i felt uneasy and i reali miss him...i did not knw does he felt the same way toward me...i cant read mind all sudden..i was totally blank..i reali wanna to knw how he felt for me and why does he express tis way..all the while i am strong and i will not fall for anyone thou they come after me....but tis time is totally different..i dunno how to say but reali different....

wat shud i do????
how would i knw he is same think as me???

if we were together......
alot question thou come into my mind...and so on...
but i did not wanted to care much as long i love him and he does so....

dear, i reali love u does u felt it....dun tell me all the while sms tat u express is the love tat u wanted to devoted in???can u tell me???i reali wanna to knw....:'(

ps:sleepless nite...i am death crying....
Love,
eve_gal

Part 2:good to great???

Hi everyone....i am bck to blog more regarding the camp...As i had promise u all tat i will blog more, sorry for the late update due to project is up and alot of stuff drowning me....

Anyway,not to waste time let go into he camp topic..After the 1st day, we reali had not enuff due to essay we nid to to yesterday nite...lol..alot of ppl hang out at mamak just to finish the essay not oni tat but ot knw ppl more..:D

I and my college mate slept at 4am and woke up at 7.30am....and wake up tat time no water to brush teeth and bath..Its make me felt so so uneasy..but no choice is camp so let enjoy it bah....I went down to the lobby and i wait for my buddy to come dwn at the same time i SMS her...*started to miss buddy* and again start out journey to DIGI HQ again..:D

Let the pic roll>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

in the morning everyone waiting for the bus....thou we are tired..:D

reach DIGI HQ have a light breakfast and start our nice prog...:D

i think tis is lunch kua...not so sure..hahaha...too many food d..*yummy*

dinner time SS little...hahha....very cold actually..*freazzzzzzing*

Let us SS again...:D

*yummy*food...wahh....gone crazy...:D

Take 2*cant wait*

*cheers*have our joy and fun together..:D*tea time*

*yummy*tart cheer...*Yellow Army*

yeah....the *yellow ranger*passionnnn...:D

well..i will continue my blog tomorrow due to time constraints..i really apologize for the inconvenient...i will update all tomorrow...hopefully..:D

PS:pray for me yeah...i felt reali tired...:(

Love,

eve_gal

THe motivational camp!

Hi guys and gal...
I will wan to apologize to u all for not bloging past few week for i am bz with my project and study around... Beside i am bz with some work too..:D

Anyway, i had great day through out even thou i am tired thru out the week but still i am satisfied with wat it is...

1Stly, i am wan to congratz to all YA(DIGI) who had graduated from the marketing event...we had alot of fun on it...even thou it is the last to work together..:D after the whole event i am bck home to studty my tamadun which had test the next day...after the test i went to my lab cls and i receive a call which informin i am the next coming advicer for DIGI in my campus..i was stunt at tat moment and reali speechless..i dunno how to express myself and felt a reali big pressure after all...cos i reali no confidence i can do it and why me???hahaha...after tat all of thing happen which no one knw except God...He knw every single thing tat happen thru out...i wanted to share but i cant *privacy*..

Den thru out the week i kip try to work out my job and decide fairly to choose commander for the new coming year...i hope wat i had decide will not b wrong choice..i trust them and i believe i able to wrk with so i reali hope they will cooperate with me..

On 27th to 29th of mac i went to DIGI Advisor and Commander camp...it was a reali fun and the coolest camp i nvr went b4...after the whole camp i felt reali relize in evrything had happen in the past...i felt like so light and had alot of passion in doing work...even thou this camp we whn thru alot of hard time, not enuff slp,lost voice and etc...but we truly enjoy overall and appreciate every single moment...:D
On the 1st day we reach DIGI HQ abt 7 and den we whn in to the office and it is raining outside...i was stunt by the whole building which make me felt amazed...is like so gigantic company with nice design..while we reach the 1st plc we wanted to go so much is the toilet cos we had stuck in the bus for more than 4 hrs..:''( after the toilet,we depart to the seminar room...at the seminar room we felt reali tired and hungry cos we had no lunch and had stuck in the bus for few hrs..hehe...after register ourselves we located a plc to sit and to our stuff with starving....:D but few minutes later after we say we are starving we whn t had dinner b4 the prog start..we had reali god dinner...reali good and superb dinner which we unexpected so much..thks DIGI....:D

After the delicious dinner we had we visit the whole company and we start our prog by knwing ppl around and have sum short clip which had prepared...den our honourable speaker U2 Kumar came up to start the whole prog..after a short tok he gave we whn to our 1st wrkshop with staring a simple game...

whr tis game actually teach how to cooperate as a team to win a point...den we learn more abt personality thing and we also learn how to care for our buddy...whn they call us to find a buddy which is different campuses i was so so worry abt it cos i reali dunno how find...but Thks God i found one buddy name Sangitha which a reali sweet and nice gal...after knw her we nid to do sumthing which is hard to our buddy which i dun willing want to do but had no choice to follow it..heheh..but thks God she reali understandin person..i felt sorry thou i little ganas at 1st cos the passion coming in me and had motivated me to do thing..:D anyway i had alot of fun thru out the 1st day even it is reali tired..:D after tat we end the whole wrkshop by singing a song and knwing whr we stay and who we stay with...

after derpartring from HQ to the hotel i wanted to bath so much cos its make me felt so so uneasy..hehehe....after tat me and sherlyn went to mamak and join the other in mamak...and me,shaun, sherlyn and another guy whr just knew him at the table which name robin...:D(nice to meet u) we ply "cho dai di"...i was so hapi for kip winning...hahaha...LOL...

den me and sherlyn depart bck to the hotel and do our assignment tat had given out to us....and we wrote till 4 am and depart to slp...tat time reali tired cos we nid to wake up at 7am..:(but still we had fun.....

TO BE CONTINUE>>>>>>>>>
STAY TUNE>>>>>>>>>>

PS:prt will b up soon.....

LOve,
eve_gal

It is well with my soul....

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

There is story about this song which reali make me shock out my life.. Every time listen to this song i felt that the writer had reali strong faith and he able to stand strong on any storm tat come his way...

Well,let me share the story abt this song and the writer...
Here we go>>>>>

Spafford was born on October 20, 1828 in North Troy, New York. He was a successful lawyer in Chicago who maintained a keen interest in Christian activities, deeply spiritual and devoted to the scriptures.

Sometime in 1871, there is a fire in Chicago heavily devastated the city, and the months before that Spafford had invested hugely in real estate by the shore of Lake Michigan. The disaster greatly wiped out his holdings. But before the fire, Spafford also experienced the loss of his son named Horatio at his age of four years due to scarlet fever.

Two years after the fire, Horatio Spafford planned a trip to Europe for him and his family(anna-wife[Anna Larssen, later Americanized to Lawson, was born in Stavanger, Norway, in 1842. Horatio was immediately attracted by Anna's beauty and intelligence when she attended his Sunday school class in Chicago. When Horatio realized that Anna, fourteen years younger than he, was only fifteen, he arranged for three years tuition at a boarding school near Chicago before the idea of marriage could be discussed. The couple married in 1861.] ; daughther-Annie, Maggie, Bessie, and Tanetta). He wanted a rest for his wife and four daughters, and also to assist Moody and Sankey in one of their evangelistic campaigns in Great Britain. He was not meant to travel with his family. The day in November they were due to depart, Spafford had a last minute business transaction and had to stay behind in Chicago. Nevertheless, he still sent his wife and four daughters to travel as scheduled on the S.S. Ville du Havre, expecting to follow in a few days. On November 22, the ship laden with his wife and daughters was struck by the Lockhearn, an English vessel, and sank in few minutes.

After the survivors were finally landed somewhere at Cardiff, Wales, Spafford's wife cabled her husband with two simple words, "Saved alone." After receiving Anna's telegram, Horatio immediately left Chicago to bring his wife home. On the Atlantic crossing, the captain of his ship called Horatio to his cabin to tell him that they were passing over the spot where his four daughters had perished. He wrote to Rachel, his wife's half-sister, "On Thursday last we passed over the spot where she went down, in mid-ocean, the waters three miles deep. But I do not think of our dear ones there. They are safe, folded, the dear lambs." And at the same time he wrote this most poignant text so significantly descriptive of his own personal grief – "When sorrows like sea billows roll..." The hymn "It is Well with My Soul" was born.

It is noteworthy that Horatio Spafford did not dwell on the theme of life's sorrows and trials, instead, focused in the third stanza on the redemptive work of Christ, and in the fourth verse, anticipates His glorious second coming.

"My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul."

~THE END~

So after the story abt these song...how everyone felt??does u felt poignant on thing had happen all this while??why every time we face dilemma we enable to strong on our own feet??does we felt ashamed after knowing how does the writer go thru his life without broking down..Wat shud we do on gaining back all the strength and faith for our self??how shud we move on even thr is stumbling block stopping us to move??

I will leave those question to rewind in out mind as we move on in life...the is no other way but....................................................................................................................................................................

TO TRUST ON HIM(JESUS)

Only Him understand each and everyone of us and do continue draw strength from Him..I wan to thanks this song writer had let me understand wat kind of life we might face...at tis moment or in future..i do appreciate every single diffficulties tat had happen in my life...even it is hard to go thru but God had been a faithfull DAD and He want me stand strong for myself(which all the while i was not)..Thanks again for letting how worthful my life is to be in this moment even thou thr is up and down going on in my life......

PS:while writting all this my ears felt like rollin down and this song had ply at tis moment alot of time...i felt pressure with thing tat had mess around but i will stand strong cos i knw u are THERE...just rite THERE

love,
eveee_gal <3

How great is our God??

There’s a star called Betlegeuse.

If Earth was the size of a golfball. Betlegeuse would be the diameter of 6 Empire State Buildings. If the Earth was the size of a golfball, and you were the tiniest little person on that golfball.

How big is our God.

Numbers are taken lightly.

A million seconds ago was 12 days ago.

A billion seconds ago was…

in 1975.

A trillion seconds ago….





























was in 29 700 BC.































A quadrillion seconds ago…



































































was 30 million 800 thousand years ago.







There’s a star called Musepheus.

It’s so big that you can fit 2.7 quadrillion Earth’s inside that one star.

There’s a star called Canus Majoris.

It’s the biggest star found… yet.

If the Earth was a golfball, it would be the size of Mt.Everest.

The Hubble Space Telescope took a picture of a black hole in the middle of the Whirlpool Galaxy.



You can’t possibly tell me that that doesn’t blow your mind.

There’s a protein molecule in our bodies that keeps everything in place. It keeps everything as it is, as it should be.

It’s called Laminin.

It looks like this.



Now that can’t not blow your mind.

hey!!

INFOMATION!!!!!
Wanna leave a comment u had to scroll all the way below..sorry for inconvenient..^^

A brand new start,,,,

Hey everyone...time past so fast till we did not realize...now i am in sem 3 d...
and it had been a while i had not blog for so long..i am truly apologize..^^

Anyway,I miss the life back in hometown..and i do appreciate every moment i stay at home and every moment i spend time with family...reali fun....but now i am back again to KL and college...well,cls was fine and everything goes smoothly....^^this sem i will b having MYOB and also Tamadun.....hehe..i promise i will study hard and do my very best to do strive through my study...well thou is hard to go through but still i had no choice to success it and make my dream come true..

It had being a hard time life in KL..but i does reali wan to thks God for everything for being with me..if not idun think i am able to strive through till now..:)

There is few post tat i wan to update it..but time does not allow me to do so..hence,i will b update it soon..i promise..

Past few days i just felt i am not being me..i dunno why but i try to find out the reason..i dun dare to b sure the reason which had been found but just hide watever i could..i dun wan to turn bck to the old issue i been had for the past yrs whn i was in KL..i hope i will not face the same thing again...*God i nid u Now*

Anyway,i will b off now..i promise the lastest update will b up soon..BYEE!!

Ps:i knw i miss u but not now plz...
Pss:i nid God present..let me understand everything i dun walk in a direction which is not blong to me...

Love:
eveee_gal

The sweetest and hapiest tat You had prepared?

Hi everyone..sorry for not updating my blog for so long..i really true apologize to u all...i had been buzz around due to exam and CNY, so there is not proper time for me to blog..so now i will take my time to blog what had happen past few week.... :)

Now bring u all back to jan....

I having my final exam on Jan and was buzz with study.. Truly tell u all that i have no mood to study especial every time after step into shopping complex..due to CNY is around the corner...but however i still force myself to study tat not too bad i guess...hehe..anyway my exam was ok overall and its also due to God had give the strength and knowledge to do it..so now i only can surrender everything in His hand.. By the way,how was everyone CNY??was it great???fun??how many angpow u all get??it is alot???well..my CNY was ok just a little quite rite after form 5 maybe is due to i shifted my house...however i still enjoy on being at home and relax..thanks to tat... :) Here is sum picture b4 CNY,CNY and after CNY... XD

~my love~


~sweet mlk river with lovely music playin~


~take 2~

~the musician~

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my 1st day of CNY!!

I went my dad hometown to meet up my uncle and my aunt...Meantime waiting for aunt from JB my uncle makin a call using a phone made it china...when he pull out the area i was shock and i was wonder where got this type of phone de...hahaha....take a look on the phone before i blog more abt it.....

~special and funniest phone i ever saw~*made in china*

~take 2~

ok...this phone is kinda useful...haha...no only u can sms,call, and to all kind of thing like normal phone...but the specialty is this phone can watch Tv....hahaha.....LOL....anyway i dun wan to kip continue with tis topic...let us process.......
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The picture below is the nite family whn to cruise..... :)

~cruise view~*nice*

~take 2 with the small version of eye on m'sia~

~me and my lovely mummmy~*muacks*

~me and my lovelyyyy daddy~*huggsss*

~my bro~*lonely*

~myself btw my parent~

~myself *poser*~


~kereta lembu~

~beca/trishsaw~

~rumah papan~

~mosque~

~Mlk christ church~

~A'famosa~

~special version of eye on m'sia~

~menara tugu~*i wan sit this*

~big giant dragon~

~pft..no idea wat is this d~*sry*

~the nite version of river view~

~lost direction??whr to go??~

~map on how long is the river~

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Few day later me and parents stay at home and do nothing...admot reali bored..sum more exam!!

~yummy~fudd!!

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After exam..i was so hapi..i release alot...even hapi my sis and mummy come up Kl fetch me and we go shopping together...and i had eat the most on this day..but i nvr took picture of the food.....XD Here is sum picture with newzzz dressssseee and clotheeeeeeeee... XD
model:Me
material:greenie the dress!!

~poser~nice dress!!

~poser2~innocent?

material:whiteeee the blouseeeee!!

~poser3~whiteee!!

~poser4~cheerful me...

material:zebra the blouseeeee!!

~the last poser~*just run out frm jail*XD

~who will b the middle person??~me!@#$%^

We having alot of time together even thou there is few conflict in between...but still having alot of fun in ikea....after tat we when bck home by stopping by seremban to take a full dinner..yummy!!XD...anyway..thks alot...love u all so much...*muacksssssssssss*

LOve,
eve_gal <3>